THE COWARDLY LION,
Chapter I
The words “stay with us” burned their way into my consciousness, as I fought to comprehend the awful condition of my body and even my state of existence on the planet. The words kept repeating, as I tried to see through a distorted return of fuzzy imagery hot poker penetrating pain that rifled into the very center of my being. The pain came in waves that I rode as an unwilling surfer, each wave coming at me intolerably and inexorably, my stuttering breaths fighting to somehow survive by willing the troughs of those brutal waves to be something less than outrageous unsurvivable pain.
“Look at me, Junior, and stay with us,” a face said, the being’s beady eyes trying to bore their way into and then right through my own.
The Wizard of Oz – Cowardly 🦁
How do I get a copy of The Cowardly Lion book 1
Coming soon. You can send me a check for 30 bucks to 507 Broad Street, Lake Geneva, WI, 53147 and I will send you one
of the first autographed 1st editions as soon as the printer is done.
Semper fi, and thanks for asking.
Jim
Lt , yours is the kind of writing that if I had the book in hand I could not put down until I was done or simply passed out from lack of sleep.
This first chapter of the Cowardly Lion is more riveting than all the chapters of your combat. And those were such that I couldn’t wait for the next chapter!
I’m glad you made it. Its heart wrenching to find out the others didn’t.
Looking forward to the next and the rest of the Cowardly Lion.
Semper fi.
Barry
USN 71-76
In 69 when I was there- though as a medic in Mech Infantry in II Corps, we seemed to all think, If we thought or discussed it at all, was a concept that guys who got hit early and were dusted off were luckier, than guys who made it longer times and then got hit. Sucked… but you were alive. Survival of self. Guess in the end its critical. Guys who didn’t make it- it was just bad luck. Very random. Lots of pieces of things and shrap and rounds fly everywhere. I had about a month left when I got dusted. Lasted 10 months in the field. Not bad in retrospect. It Takes a lot of spiritual energy to tell people what happened. Putting it into words that make any sense. Mostly you just tell people about something Funny about the military. Harder to explain what combat is, or what insanity we faced. So some stories have just never been told. Dark memories. How do you explain the involuntary but eternal brothers you were serving with. and yet you might not know anything about them except maybe what others say because mostly we talked about pussy and back in the world. Or the time something happened to one of the guys. There were a few good moments- even some laughs. But mostly not. How do we tell people about that? We usually didn’t. When it was really bad someone might say “Don’t mean nothing”- and I would hear several other guys say.” Don’t mean nothing.” like a shield to just block out the pain of that moment. Those times I liked to forget about. But they will always be there- just got to think kindly of them. It was a long time ago. We survived to say that.
I like the new Book. Thanks- Doc Mike
That’s the best description of pain that I’ve ever read. This will stay with me…
LT, Sir, Jim:
An incredible first chapter of TCL.
Your loyal readership cadre are still with you…even on the plane heading to Japan.
My 8-month old laptop froze a few weeks ago. Resurrected my old, crippled laptop to use mouse device in order to access Internet but can only click and read…however, unable to type on busted keyboard.
Am using wife’s device to type this message and also used it tonight to also order two copies of the Last 10 Days.
Keep the chapters coming, LT…we so look forward to finding that next chapter of your captivating, eye opening story and all that evolves. Like Red Green said on The Red Green Show–“remember, we’re pulling for ya!”
Lt. Thank you for another riveting chapter in your journey. Your descriptive accounts in the field brought me into your world as no other account could. The intensity of each chapter is captivating. The first chapter of Cowardly Lion is beyond anything I have ever read. Your fragmented recollection of your surroundings and medical attention as you struggled to survive is beyond powerful. Your account of receiving your last rights is terrifying. I wish my cousin who was a medic could have read this before his sudden death. Thank you Lt for sharing your story. I anxiously await the three volume hard cover set of your work.
Thanks so much for that terrific comment Andrew. I have copied and pasted it to all my sites where the Cowardly Lion appears on Facebook.
Means a lot to me and I think it will to anyone else who reads it. Nicely said and wonderfully complimentary…
Semper fi, my friend and brother
Jim
Glad to see you once again put pen to paper with a captivating chapter Lt. I recall the med evac hospital at Da Nang in ’67, great caring people there.
Once again I must complement you on your memory and ability to put those events into print, and for one am very glad you are able to do that and share with us your personal thoughts and fears.
Keep them coming !!
SEMPER Fi
My problems, over time,
SGtBob, have not been about forgetting.
They have been about not being able to forget…
Semper fi, and thanks for the comment.
Semper fi,
Jim
Hey LT , been off the grid for a few, and just read chapter 1 of the Lion, wow , what a run you had going, please pass on the rest when you feel ready, sure it was not easy to write.My dad ,WWII USMC Guadalcanal spent 4 months state side in a VA hospital before he was discharged, his war was over too, and only lasted a short time, 3 days on the island before waking up totally deaf on a mercy ship in the Pacific
Welcome back, and with such power. Your dad at Guadalcanal. I wonder if he felt bad about going down on only the third day. It was tough for me for a long time to
know that I could only make it 30 days. Now, I understand so much better. No veteran has ever, on this site, held that short time against me and I have much enjoyed that fact.
Thanks for writing about your dad and yourself on here.
Semper fi,
Jim
I spent a year and a half in-country. Not infantry. I had a few close calls. That said, if I add up all my experiences they don’t come close to one day of yours. Time in country doesn’t count for much.
Two short tours:
An acquaintance, infantry Army 4th Div, spent one week in-country training before going to the field. Two weeks later after an assault a short round from one of our 155s took his leg.
Marine new in country and before being assigned to a unit is doing fatigue duty. The job entailed moving 55 gal fuel drums from a raised rack. The drums were stored on their sides. They were to be rolled off the rack down a ramp. One drum got away from them. His hand was crushed amputating the first digit of his right index finger – his trigger finger. Medevaced back to the States.
We just play the hand we are dealt.
His hand was crushed. You then stated that “we must play the hand we are dealt.” Which hand?
A gallows humor kind of thing, I know. Thanks for the great subjective and personal comment.
Semper fi,
Jim
Awesome writing James…however you made it…we are all glad that you did…so you could tell your story, which is, in a way, the story of many vets on here. There is such intensity in your writing, such care, and just plain grit…to tell the truth of the matter. Like someone previously said, I am so caught up in the story I don’t even notice the typing errors. I have bought the first two books, but would like the three book set when available…and a hard cover version also…Thanks for getting this follow up out so quickly…
Your compliments and support are much appreciated on this end. The men and women who have written on this site over the past three
years (22,521) have provided me so much in life. It’s hard to describe and also it was impossible to predict when I began the
odyssey. I much enjoy reading and answering the comments myself. There’s some kind of therapy in that too.
Semper fi
Jim
Wowee James more good writing. I’m guessing from your time in combat you must be deaf as a stone lion?
Yes, my hearing is not the best, although I have not gotten the hearing aids yet. Soon. In combat, at least back then, there were no ear muffs or any of that.
I used to stuff my ears with stuff when I could but that was not always possible. The ringing would bother me more than the brief periods of total silence that
would come from being too close to an artillery round going off.
semper fi,
Jim
James, Thank you for writing this gripping account. I applaud your bravery and writing skill. I just purchased the three book set and will purchase this when done. Thank you for your service. I pray the rest of your years are lived in peace and comfort. God Bless, Allen
Thanks so much Allen. The purchase of the books means a whole lot to me, as you might imagine.
Working alone on this has not been a problem, because of the people like you on this site.
Thanks,
Semper fi,
Jim
Thanks for not leaving me hanging. I thought I would just make up my own ending.
Well, that’s not necessarily a bad idea, although I am trying here to get it the way it went down.
Semper fi,
Jim
Unbelievable work. So good one can see and feel what’s going on in each sentence.
Thanks most sincerely, Ed. I don’t think about sturcture or any of that when I write. It just comes.
Appreciate your compliment and that you are writing it in a public place…
Semper fi
Jim
Simply brilliant piece of writing. Thank you.
You are most welcome E!!! And thanks for writing that on here…
Semper fi,
Jim
The amazing writing and story continue. Amazing you can remember these details in the condition you were in .
That’s when memory is amazing. We lose so many great experiences in part or total but this kind of stuff….never.
Thanks for the comment on here.
Semper fi,
Jim
Jim did you ever see Nguyen later in life? I know that it’s very personal to ask. But that guy meant a lot to you. Hell he means a lot to me and I’m just a reader living vicariously in your world through your words.
Please understand that I can’t write about future events until I unfold them in The Cowardly Lion, or it screws everything up.
Thanks for asking though.
Semper fi,
Jim
Fusner rest in peace good the gunny made it thr remaining young marines needed his leadership to survive.
Lt. your writing only gets better and better! I am so buried in the words that I never notice the typo’s. I am as in 30 days, hanging on to every word and waiting tensely on the next chapter! We’ve got your back LT!!!
Thanks Johnny. Yes, the compliments like your own do reach me and do effect me. Sometimes, without a ‘real’ publisher, it gets pretty lonely being the writer of such things.
Much appreciate the depth of your support too…and that helps me, as well.
Semper fi,
Jim
I’m not sure how to start this comment. My first thought was “the saga continues” but that just seems to flippant, as that was before I read the whole chapter. Your new odyssey, starting with describing your physical pain, as well as your mental anguish, already seems it will be far worse than when you were in the A Shau (just guessing, as I have no military experience). I understand your pain and the (temporary) relief morphine brings when I was badly hurt in a truck wreck. But I cannot equate my experience with yours as my pain was just the body, not the body and soul as for you. I’ve been with you since the first chapter three or so years ago. You have really “open my eyes” to the reality of war as no other book has. I feel as if I am sitting on your shoulder, your writing is that good. Thank you and I will continue to wait for the next chapters.
Highly complimented Don, so much that I put your comment up on my other sites. Thank you so very much.
Semper fi,
Jim
LT all I can say, as a non combat Vet is once again WOW!
Great praise in that simple word Jim, and much appreciated on this end.
Semper fi,
Jim
I live with chronic pain but I could not image what you went through. Thank the Lord you survived to tell your story. Thank you Lt. and you sound like a leader that I would not have any problems following.
Thanks Doc, about the leader thing…I got better the longer I lived. Combat teaches by killing and I shall never ever forget that.
Yes, the survival was a trail of tears but also of discovery and bearing down to endure the seemingly unendurable…
Semper fi,
Jim
Hey Lt. I have been following you through your journey. “Thirty Days” was an unbelievable read. But I have to say, this first chapter tops everything so far. I was lucky to miss Vietnam, got stationed stateside for my entire 2 years (72-74). I salute you and all of the men and women that “did their duty” in that horrific conflict. I am glad you made it and can share those horrors with us that missed it. Thank you sir, just thank you. And God bless you.
So glad you stayed stateside, so we can have this dialogue. I never go after anyone who was not there, except for those who go after those who did go when they did not.
I’m glad to have communications with so many living survivors and those who did not go. It is a one way dialogue to communicate with the dead so I try not to do much of that.
Glad you alive and very happy you are enjoying the work.
Semper fi,
Jim
Wow! Hard to imagine the sheer terror and pain as you are ambushed from within your perimeter and rendered incapable of functioning, but you have given a very articulate and clear picture of the horror that descended upon you and your men. You have given a very good description of your pain, your fears for yourself and your survivability odds, and also your concern and frustration for the fate of the men who fought alongside you. That obviously weighed heavily on you. Again, I finish another segment and find myself just sitting here, shaking my head, at a loss for words. Thank you, sir.
Thanks so much Marshall, and your comment does reach and effect me. Sometimes it is hard to go on, but I persevere and this comment section has been a lifeline to me.
Thanks to one and all who are reading this and making their own comments.
Semper fi,
Jim
You remember more than I, I’m thankful I recall very little. I recall getting put in the chopper. Told I was in Japan and Edwards AFB CA. I came around at Walter Reed and told the specialist needed was at Andrews. At Andrews they started rotating different pain meds as I had too much morphine, that was their opinion. I recall part Last Rights only once. That was as frightening as a FF with gooks in the wire at night. Like you it was months in hospitals. From the 1st corpsman to the last doctor and all in between I had great care and was patched better than can be expected. I trust your care was great too. We still live with the pain, I gave up Oxy after 22 years for non – narc drugs. We still live with the demons. There are many like us, but fewer every day. At this point, God bless the VA as they have kept me as healthy as possible for decades. Glad you came home to write about our war for us and future generations. I think God will look upon Nam vets as we served our time in Hell and deserve some dispensation.
Yes, long term morphine, administered frequently, creates a withdrawal that is hard to explain to anyone who has not gone through the four day, day and night, horror of it.
Thanks for bringing that up and you will read more of it as The Cowardly Lion progresses.
Semper fi,
Jim
Getting rapped up in your near or imminent death experience made me think of my own trip back to the world. There was not the physical horror but it seems like the mental fog was just as chaotic. One day we were watching tracers over the trail and then we were leaving all our brothers at war and going back to Kansas. I arrived home in NC and my daughter was now 2 1/2 and June reminded me we had a son Jimi who was 3mo….I wasn’t bleeding but I was in shock! Thank you S/F
The A-6 Intruder man. Whole Man. Thank you. For back then and for now. I like to imagine all the guys who so powerfully threw support to us back then, and lived, are like you.
Know that’s not true, but what the hell! You are a class act Colonel and I much appreciate your comments and you friendship. As you know, I don’t have many veteran friends, except on here, but then, I didn’t do very well
on the peer evaluations back at Quantico either!
Semper fi,
Jim
In so many ways I am glad you were there in the air helping Jim and his company.
Great to hear your side of the story
James, Thanks for your service, awesome writing skills and memories. My Dad 5th Division Marine fought at Iwo Jima . He had a couple of stories but didn’t like to talk about the war. Can’t wait for the next chapter.
As I laid in the hospital in Japan after 2 weeks in Chu Lai I was beginning to become human again and realized I was going to live. My second night I was awakened by someone going through the cabinets that were next to each patient that held their personal belongings. I watched groggily as he went through 3 and then I hoarsely yelled Hey what are you doing? He immediately ran out of the area. Don’t know if he came back again later but it was maddening to see some low life stealing from severely wounded patients. Everything I had was left in the field so I had nothing to lose at that point. I wonder how the marines that lifted your 45 and watch feel abut their actions now? Do they have any kind of guilty conscience or have they made up a cover story that they now believe.
I, too, am awaiting the release of all 3 books. If it would help matters I am more than happy to pay in advance for them.
Hope to have the third book in print by late next week. Chuck says that the three book set will go for 79.95 which seems about right for autographed and unscripted, as the time and postage and packaging (not to mention trips too and from the post office)
takes a lot more than most people might think. I am Jim Strauss, 507 Broad Street, Lake Geneva, WI. 53147. You will be one of the first to get the full series when the third finally gets here from the printer.
Thanks so very much. The guys who ‘stole’ the watch and the Colt didn’t really steal them, if you think about it. They needed that stuff a helluva lot more than I did and I was okay with it then and even more okay with it now.
Semper fi,
Jim
Happily my experience was much less dramatic than yours, but I was medevaced out of the Parrot’s Beak and woke up to someone saying “Come on, breathe, don’t quit on me now.” That part of your experience I can identify with. Very glad you survived to tell your remarkable story.
Yes, you had to go through something like this to hear words like that, or have people like us tell you.
Thanks for the support and for being a fellow combat brother in arms.
Semper fi,
Jim
Great writing, Jim. I could feel your pain. The cowardly lion is yet to show its face.
“I did multiple resections and knit the bone of your hip back together.” Perhaps “knitted”
I homed in on “pardner,” but think most likely that is exactly what you meant as you remembered hearing it.
Thanks, Waynor on the ‘Knit’ catch.
It is corrected
Semper fi,
Jim
Wow! That brought back vague and forgotten memories. I took the fast way down a 40 foot mountain side when I was stationed in Taiwan. They took out my spleen and sewed up my ruptured bladder. Sent me on to Yokosuka for further surgeries and broken bones. They didn’t expect me to live. None of my personal effects ever caught up with me. I went on to make 3 tours of Nam and am still hanging on at 75 years old.
That was one hell of a fall! Similar stuff though. I never went back, nor would have, for another tour, no matter who long or short.
You have more endurance than I had or do.
Thanks to adding to the developing story with stuff about you and what happened to you.
Semper fi,
Jim
Good to see you taking up the keyboard again and looking for the rest of the story. A man once told me “The Lord works in mysterious ways” and I have found that to be very true. There is healing going on through your story not with just you but some of your readers. Thank you for sharing your story LT.
There is God’s guidance in this whole thing, but, as you intimate, its almost impossible to consider what the meaning of all of it is.
Thanks for bringing that up. The healing of all this has to be His thing as I had no clue when I started. I have been guided over the past three years
to personally answer almost everyone of the 22,504 comments that have been made to date.
Semper fi, and God bless you…
Jim
I hate trying to type with tears in my eyes and white hot anger for those who stole your possessions. The one true God, the God of the Bible has blessed you with the courage and focus to continue on with your journey. Thanks for sharing. You James are no cowardly lion.
Chuck Grigus, class act and I cannot thank you enough for this great comment. About the stuff…they needed it more than I did or was going to. I had no further use for the firearm and I had this big ticking clock on my hospital room wall!
Thanks for standing for me now, though. No, I’m not a cowardly lion, but it is very important for those of us who came with such applied violence burning into the very center of our souls, that we portray ourselves as such. The real capability,
knowledge and ability to inflict mortal damage will always be there…waiting…so there’s no need to give anybody any warning or cause to be afraid.
Semper fi,
Jim
You are a lion sir but one hell of a long way from being a cowardly lion, but it’s your book. One hell of a journey, I’m amazed you made it !
thanks Willis, means a lot to me for you to say that. It is amazing that I made it and also that I have made it this far.
Now, I’m not cowardly, but it sure as hell pays to act that way in our culture…if you have the kind of PTSD and skill sets I brought home.
thanks for the neat comment,
Semper fi,
Jim
Hey Lt…Just finished Chapter 1. Won’t tarry long as I can not imagine any one going through what you endured during the time you gave us glimpses of. The fear I felt with the first time I watched and heard incoming marching up the hill toward my small communications bunker rose up and smacked me. I got off scott free other than the mental anguish afterward, when I discovered I had earned my first, but not last, set of Tiger Stripes. That you are even able to write about it is amazing to me. Am so grateful that you survived to give those of us following your escapades this slight insight into what we can only imagine. Thanks again for allowing me to tag along. Take care Lt.
Thanks a ton Charles. Great comment and I am always happy as hell to hear from other combat vets. Thanks for the compliments
and the attentive support.
Semper fi
Jim
Jim, Thank you for sharing your, as you put it, your odyssey. Your personal odyssey that began over 50 years ago in a place far away. A time and place that, I believe, that most Americans don’t remember, don’t want to remember, don’t want to be bothered with. And those that do are on the downside of the bell curve. But there are those that are experiencing a part of that time & distant place, the suffering of those on both sides, the wondering of “why”. And that is good for the soul. Thanks, Doug
Thanks Doug. Means a lot to me that so many vets on here put so much thought into responding. Your own beliefs about the culture’s response
to that war are pretty spot on.
Semper fi,
Jim
I can’t even begin to imagine the pain. And my guess is that it will continue for a long time. We’ll be with you.
Bummer about the watch – but military hospitals are like that.
Some minor editing suggestions follow:
My letter home. I could no die.
Maybe “not” instead of “no”
My letter home. I could not die.
I fumbled the package out, shredding the cardboard box as I did so while bring my freed up right hand
Maybe “bringing” instead of “bring”
I fumbled the package out, shredding the cardboard box as I did so while bringing my freed up right hand
I got the tine metal stopper out
Maybe “tiny” instead of “tine”
I got the tiny metal stopper out
“There’s no triage because there no other patients,”
Maybe “are” after “there”
Or “there’s”
“There’s no triage because there are no other patients,”
“There’s no triage because there’s no other patients,”
one fo the Marines dragging my poncho said.
“of” instead of “fo”
one of the Marines dragging my poncho said.
I was receiving the last rights
“rites” instead of “rights”
I was receiving the last rites
Your 4 Q.H. so that’ll be a little
“Your” or “You’re”
You’re 4 Q.H. so that’ll be a little
I recognized the file that had accompanied during my stay at Tachikawa Air Force Base, half an hour by rapid Jeep travel, from where we’d taken off.
I’m just not quite getting this. Maybe:
I recognized the file that had accompanied me during my stay at Tachikawa Air Force Base, from where we’d departed half an hour ago by rapid Jeep travel.
I like the Lion image. With his paw across his face he appears to have a headache. Someone or something is just too much.
Blessings & Be Well
WOW!
Thank you again, Dan
I appreciate your support and brilliance in editing.
Semper fi
Jim
Gritty. Intensely private pain and fears made public. Captures well the chaos and uncertainty.
Thanks again for the kind words and support, Mark
Semper fi,
Jim
Hope you are doing okay, my old friend. Yes, it was a time alright, and one I never really expected to get back to writing about, but here we are.
Thanks for the note. My prayers and greatest regards….
Semper fi,
Jim
Another eye opener at 7:30 AM on a Saturday morning , and hopefully a prelude to Juniors journey to finding peace with himself . Thank you for sharing your story with us .
You have been on this journey with me for a long time, Chuck
Thank you for your support
Semper fi,
Jim
LT, I am at a loss to express my gratitude and admiration for yours and others sacrifices! There are just have no suitable words! Thank You for reliving the pain for us!
You are most welcome Jerry and it means a lot to me that you say what you said here on such a public forum.
Semper fi,
Jim
Wow! Just wow! As always, just incredibly descriptive and powerful writing!! Thanks for sharing such a horribly painful experience that must have been emotionally difficult to tell. Not only are you a great writer, but a man who served honorably in performing his duty in miserable circumstances in an unpopular war. Thanks for your writing, thanks for your service and God bless you!
Thanks John Marshall. I wish I had such high plaudits for my own behavior and I must admit that the opinion of your own, and so many others on here has indeed changed my opinion of myself under those conditions so long ago.
Semper fi,
Jim
Yes James, we are all just men. You and alot of other women and men showed great courage in the face of hellish danger. I Thank God you survived so as to tell your story.
Semper fi
Sean
The utter confusion of a near death experience is so well portrayed. Great read.
Yeah, One of the memories stuck in my brain was much I wanted to be ‘right with God. There are no atheists in combat. ‘ The other memory that stays with me and I never want it to leave, was the faces of those combat nurses who brought me back to sanity. Too the world
As I said before Marine, You got a set. I don’t remember the pain and I damn sure don’t want to.
I have never read anything as riveting as your 30 days in the Valley. You have given an insight of a Marine combat unit that truly difficult to absorb, especially for a non-combatant. Reading the comments show that you have hit a true chord and given a voice to many others. ‘Thank you for your service’ seems such an inconsequential phrase for those such as you who endured this war.
There’s an odd sense of direction that the first days were so clouded by fear and confusion. Maybe from my perspective the desire to see Junior whole again is testament to the way I have connected to the Lt.
Looking forward to getting some of the hardcopy
Great start to follow up story.
Lt Strauss, what a row you Howe’s up to this point, unbelievable! It bums me out that thieves lifted your .45 and watch from you, nothing is sacred.
I too am familiar with morphine. I had a staph infection in my left knee in 1990. I was in the hospital 2 weeks fighting it. Came close to losing my leg I was told. Morphine was the only thing that could kill the pain. I had a machine that self administered. I watched the second on the clock like a hawk when I could hit the button and get relief. That is some bad sh*t though. Coming off of that was something else. Wouldn’t wish that experience on my worst enemy. Looking forward to the rest of your story.
Stupid phone. I meant like what a journey you’ve had and what’s ahead. Unbelievable.
Thanks Tom, much appreciate the comment and compliment…
Semper fi,
Jim
Such a nice surprise to come across this chapter. I felt I was with you all the way. I’ve know excruciating pain and can relate to the count down. Just for your information, there’s stuff out there now that knocks out the pain instantly; DILAUDID. I don’t think it was available during Viet Nam.
You sure lived a lot in thirty days, and the guys that robbed you were rascals.
So looking forward to the rest of the book.
I really don’t know what to say at this point L, I have followed you this far and remembered the battles of my own with the B 1/9 in 67 to 69, My 2nd battle was in 2018 when my son committed suicide,and my marriage taking the brunt of the grief, which resulted in a divorce . Now at 72 this part of your life is more important to me than ever .Maybe your courage through this recovery faze of you troubled life may help me in solving mine . I would love to buy your autographed copy of this book ,to go with the two I already have. Bless you Sir !
I am so glad you lived to write about your experience and life .. how frightening it must have been , all that threat and war .. . . what you had to endure . I can not imagine ever . And now in the States so many people becoming ill and dying I am so sorry for them and their families . I have lost 2 people in Mpls relatives to this covid … one after the other in quick succession . Makes one really stop and think about life and what it is all about . Just lately yesterday we lost a cousin and then my husband fell and hit his head and we lost he was not going to live as he was confused and unable to get his bearings ,,, and one starts to think . what will one do without them > and then one thinks so many have recently died and so many every day are becoming ill and dying ….. I hope things get better and we can get some semblance of normality again . ?? I hope you and your family are safe and well and i am so glad you are a friend and I do cherish your writings and thoughts . keep well .. I think of you often and hope things improve for all . soon .
Wow James the LORD was with you !!! He kept you around for this to be told !!!
Yes, I came to see that over time, although I remain unsure of what direction I am supposed to go in every morning as I wake to him and the world.
But you guys, and Him, are with me through he difficult nights now and I cannot ell you how much that means to me.
Semper fi,
Jim
James, even though some of us did not experience all the hell you went through, we are with you now in this new journey and He is with all of us, too, as we grow older.
I had the privilege of daily conversations with a 92 year old WWII and Korea Marine pilot neighbor for about 3 or 4 years and helped take care of him and his dog when he ran assigned helpers out of his house and hid stuff every night and then thought somebody had stolen it. People asked me why I did that. I told them because he is a Veteran and we have to help take care of each other. Maybe someone will do the same for me some day when I need help.
You sir, area class act. I cannot tell you the number of times I have hidden personal defense stuff and then forgotten about it over the years, only to run into a cache of it
accidentally later on. Those late nights do not have to be laced with drugs or alcohol to have memory effects. We sleep and are then healed, until the following night. When we hide more shit to fight enemy
who’s never coming. Unless he does…and then God help him…as I finally recall where i hid that rolling pin….
Semper fi,
Jim
After a year in the bush, I have done similar things for mental security ever since. No firearms as I don’t trust myself not to use them easily with regretful results. My kids have teased me over the years about my security preparedness. Lesson learned. Great writing Lt. I did the same once, not to have published but for my kids to have someday and help cleanse my soul. I look forward to your future publications. God Bless.
LT your direction is plain to me. You are now our pointman. You have the gift of storytelling and you can put into words what we are unable to express!! Also with your example maybe we can start to talk to our loved ones about our time in Vietnam. My daughter has asked me many times and I never know what to tell her and what not to tell her. I don’t seem to be able to put into words my feelings and thoughts while patrolling. You on the other hand seem to be able to express those thoughts and feelings. Keep up the good work and Semper Fi
Terry (Doc) Novak
Thanks so much for the compliments and the revelation about your own situation. What to tell family and friends? That’s a tough one. My wife will not read Thirty Days, any of it, but she picked up the first chapter of
The Cowardly Lion and really enjoyed it. She was stunned to find out for the first time that I’d been sent to an Air Force Hospital by mistake! Never would have thought to mention that back in the day. The Cowardly Lion
will allow her to make a real entry into the saga, of course, so I have to be careful. As an old friend once said to me, and bear this in mind, “you can be right…and you can be alone.”
Semper fi,
Jim
Wow, Thank you Lt.
You are most welcome Jim. I am working to make sure the aftermath is something everyone can understand and identify with.
I was not a hero, as so many like to proclaim themselves today. I was a man, a boy, who sought to do good on behalf of those
around me and back in the ‘real world’ while also never forgetting to survive myself at all cost.
Semper fi,
Jim
You did as well as anyone could under the circumstances of the Hell you were thrust into. You are correct about the overuse of the term hero. May we all be able to do the right thing when confronted.
Keep the great prose coming Sir.
Thanks Tim, I will stay on top of it bit better now.
Semper fi,
Jim
Yes Lt, we will all be reading the cowardly lion. How you remember all of this is beyond me. Thank you!
If you lived this kind of stuff, then you never ever forget it. I don’t know about dementia or any of that.
Maybe that’s up ahead so I better hurry up and get it all down.
Semper fi,
Jim
Outstanding opening chapter! Once again I sit here in stunned amazement at your incredible experience. I’m very much looking forward to keeping up with this next book in your continuing saga. In reading the chapters and almost every comment I realize how difficult this is for you at times. Stay strong Lt. Strauss.
Yes, it is hard at times, but it is easier as I come to understand that I am not in this alone, and never was. I just felt alone.
Thanks for being part of the welcoming committee for ‘coming home’ so to speak.
Semper fi,
Jim
I got the (tine) metal stopper out of the end of the needle, wondering at the same time about the fingers I couldn’t see that had to still be there if I was able to do what I was doing. (tiny)
You never disappoint on being able to bring one along . One can even feel the bumps in the road on your journey.
Your ability, Pete, to isolate a part of the story that burns to the depths of the import of the odyssey, is precious. I don’t know what I write or the true meaning of it until you, and other
gifted vets, tell me about it.
Semper fi,
and thanks so much,
Jim
Hang tough LT ! We are all now hanging on along with you!
Your hanging on with me has gotten me this far in the writing, and to be truthful, in life.
I cannot thank you, and all those on here like you, enough.
Semper fi,
Jim
I’ve needed morphine quite a few times for chest pain, 4 stents, 2 shoulder surgeries, 3 strangulated hernias with mesh then mesh removal, 4 herniated discs in my neck, 1 in my lower back. I found that morphine maybe works for about an hour and that’s it. I can’t even imagine what you went through LT. Holy shit!
Oh there’s more, as morphine was such a bridge back into any kind of life. It also had to go before I could come back into the ‘real’ world.
More as we progress in the chapters of TCL.
Semper fi,
Jim
Damn, Lt!
Respect Sir!
Thanks of much Bruce. I am trying to lay it down as it went down, without feeling sorry for myself or explaining way too much about my mental state at the time, which was a mess.
Thanks for caring and writing on here to show that.
Semper fi,
Jim
Gunny and Jergens gone? How would you know that at this point? Looking forward to getting the big hardback containing all 3 books of 30 Days. How do I do that. I’m sure I’ll want this one too. Hope you are well.
I did not know at that time. Read on. Most of the resolution you, and others seek, will be delivered in the following chapters….
Semper fi,
Jim
Did you ever connect again with any of your troops?
All will be revealed as your read on in the The Cowardly Lion. The odyssey is far, far, from over.
Semper fi,
Jim
You are tease Cherub
Well, not on purpose Rich. Just the way it is coming out. I never plan where to end a chapter. I just go so far and then stop…and start another.
thanks for the strange smiling compliment…
Semper fi,
Jim
A long hard time in your life. I don’t know how you remember so much. There are a lot of things I cannot remember about when I was there in 66 & 67 any more. The good lord was keeping you alive to tell you story. Semper Fi Sir.
There is so much I cannot forget! That’s my situation entirely.
Thanks for bringing up the subject and the comment you just made.
Semper fi,
Jim
Awesome writing Jim, just like 30 Days. Looking forward to more of the story.
25th 2/14 Cu Chi 1970
Thanks Floyd, I am back on my game pretty solid now. The virus through me, or the effects of it across the nation and at home too. Much appreciate the support and the writing about it on here too…
Semper fi,
Jim