I was ushered into a room that had a table and two chairs set in its center, and on the table were two large metal rings set very securely into a several-inch thick slab of hardwood that served as its top.
“Take a seat and wait for developments,” the big MP said, pointing at the far chair.
I noted that the Marine was a staff sergeant. I wanted to inform him that I was an officer and therefore deserved to be addressed using the word ‘sir’ after every comment he made, but my time in the valley had conditioned me. I was in a weakened situation and on unknown ground, so being called sir might be an accurate demand, and possibly one that might get me dead if I needed the help of the staff sergeant to prevent that result. I sat down, clasping both hands as I placed them between the big metal rings, obviously set into the table to secure suspects or prisoners with handcuffs. While in the hospital in Oakland, off the morphine and bored to death with daytime soap opera entertainment coming out of the cheap small television above my bed, I’d read as much as I could. The Count of Monte Cristo was my favorite novel, and I read it through several times, with only General Sun Tzu’s ‘Art of War,’ taking up more of my time. The Count was and would be my bible but the Art of War was and would be my handbook of how to live my life in a complex unforgiving world I’d come home to.
“The supreme art of war is to subdue the enemy without fighting,” I breathed silently for the staff sergeant to hear. I also knew never to fight on enemy ground from that same brilliant general.
“Thank you, staff sergeant,” I said out loud, “much appreciate your transporting me without the usual jewelry.” I looked and nodded down pointedly at the big iron rings on either side of my hands.
“Orders,” the staff sergeant replied, standing in a position that was half at ease and half parade rest. I knew he was waiting for something or someone simply because it would be too uncomfortable to remain in that position for a long time.
The door opened and a man wearing a gray suit walked in, closing the door carefully and quietly behind him.
“You can stand down, sergeant,” the man said, letting me know that he wasn’t a Marine in civilian attire. No Marine would call the staff sergeant by that simple ‘sergeant’ title, as it lowered his rank to that of buck sergeant. That single additional stripe on the staff sergeant’s shoulders meant everything to him, as it did for all non-commissioned officers of that rank.
The man pulled out the chair from under the edge of the other side of the table, and sat down, plopping a brown briefcase onto the tabletop, opening it, and then pulling a thin brown folder and a bright yellow Walkman from it.
Another Walkman, like the pilot’s inside the F-14. I was beginning to wonder if somehow the Japanese electronics firm that made them had some sort of contract with U.S. forces abroad.
The staff sergeant opened the door and slipped out without saying a word, raising my hopes. I was being trusted to be no threat to the civilian in front of me or I would have been wearing cuffs, I knew. Either that or none of the men I’d run into so far knew anything at all about my background. When still inside Oaknoll Naval Hospital in Oakland, the staff had somehow learned of my life in the Ashau as Junior and that time had not gone well until I was finally released. The CIA was evidently a much more closed system and the fact that I was ‘nobody’ once again, as I’d been at the Western White House, made me feel almost relaxed, even inside the obvious outer reaches of a military brig.
The man pulled the file across the small table, delicately opened it, and read the first page of its contents without saying anything until he finally looked up.
I looked back at him and waited. No questions were asked so no answers were required.
“I don’t like dealing with men like you,” he said and then waited as if expecting some answer to a question he hadn’t asked.
I said nothing, trying to give him as little in the way of a facial expression as I could. I knew that just because he was uncomfortable, or said so, didn’t mean he wasn’t vitally curious about me, my mission, or even if I was part of a mission. I wanted to ask him what “a man like you” meant but instead, once again, followed the Thorkelson/Bartok life insurance sales training that was not only drilled into the center of my brain but had proven itself so successful in keeping me from making unnecessary verbal mistakes when dealing with unknown and potentially dangerous opponents, like the man sitting in front of me.
The man sighed, and his shoulders dropped a bit.
“You are on the island of Okinawa, at the Camp Hansen Marine Base,” the man said with a professorial tone in his voice. “The island was returned to the Japanese a few years ago. Most people don’t recall or ever knew that. The Japanese are sticklers for detail and don’t accept strangers from strange lands landing on their island without proper pre-approval or paperwork. The fact that you landed here is not known to them, as far as I know, but if you were to be dropped at the civilian airport not far from here your passport would not have an entry stamp, much less one from the place you left before getting here, so that document’s useless.”
The man reached into an inside coat pocket and pulled out a small black booklet.
“This is called a ‘dip’ by those who carry it,” he said, shoving the booklet toward me across the table. “In reality, it’s a U.S. diplomatic passport. You’re about to become, very temporarily, an envoy of the United States. The authorities at emigration can’t ask you questions or do much at all except let you pass. We need a polaroid for the photo, so we have to wait for the guy who’s coming to take it and then get it properly pressed and embossed into the thing, or whatever they call that process.”
The man took a pack of Camel cigarettes out from the pocket on the other side of his coat. He tapped the pack heavily several times on the tabletop, tamping the tobacco down for whatever reason smokers did such things.
I wanted to ask him why smokers did such things, but I, once again, remained silent.
After the tamping, he carefully extracted one unfiltered cigarette from the pack and returned it to his pocket. He placed the cigarette between his lips, his hand shaking as he did so, and then he reached over and pushed a button on the Walkman. A song began to play. It was by Jefferson Airplane, and I loved it, never really paying attention to the lyrics, however. The first words came from the small machine as the man adjusted the volume down, “When the truth is found to be lies, and all the joy within you dies…don’t you want somebody to love…”
The door opened and a Marine Lance Corporal came into the small room.
“Don’t generally take photos in the brig,” he said, with a big smile. When neither the other man nor me smiled back he quickly became all business and pulled a Polaroid camera from a canvas bag he carried.
“I have to set up the white screen behind you and then snap a shot or two,” the corporal said, bringing out a rolled bit of white cloth. He then walked to the wall behind me and used thumbtacks to hold it to the wooden surface.
I got up and stood with the cloth behind me, wondering if someone looking at the passport might notice just how amateurish a cutout Polaroid might look, as my regular U.S. passport was so professionally made. I shrugged. The corporal took a couple of photos, held out his hand for the ‘dip,’ pulled the cloth down, and was gone in seconds.
“He’ll be back in a few minutes,” the man said, matter-of-factly, lighting another cigarette. He offered one to me, but I shook my head, sitting down, now understanding that I might not be entering the confinement area of the brig but I wasn’t free to leave unsupervised either.
In only the space of a few minutes, the Lance Corporal was back, stepping through the door and extending his hand with the passport in it. He pulled a blue large envelope from behind him at the same time.
I looked at the envelope. It was a woven thing about the size of an eight by eleven piece of paper but it was deep blue with a beautifully done State Department design on both sides in silver.
“This is a diplomatic bag, which can’t be searched,” the smoking man in front of me said, his hand showing considerably less shaking than it had earlier.
He had been afraid, I realized.
“You, however, for supposed security purposes, can be searched so put all your stuff inside the bag except for the dip.”
“I only have my wallet, some cash, and my regular passport,” I replied.
“That’s your stuff then, plus what’s already inside the bag,” he replied as the corporal moved to the door.
“Whenever you’re ready,” the corporal said, never using the word sir, which seemed strange for his rank.
Marine enlisted, and even company grade officers, generally addressed just about every civilian they met as sir or ma’am.
“Your ride is waiting outside”. At that, he gently closed the door and left.
“What’s already in the bag?’ I asked, not bothering to see how the dip job had turned out. It didn’t matter, I understood. The men at the base knew what they were doing and had probably done it many times before.
“Some papers,” the man said, putting his cigarette out on the floor, as he’d done with the first one, before standing up to grind the butt into the bare unpainted or unstained wood. “You don’t want to read them although there’s no lock on the bag. Just my recommendation.”
I put my stuff into the bag, and noted the thin sheaf of papers inside, before zipping it shut. I could decide what to do when I was on the plane, I knew, so there was no point in delaying. I wanted out of the brig and off the base just about as badly as I’d wanted to get out of Korea.
The man went to the door, opened it, and then waited for me to exit before him like there was some pattern to the whole affair I’d just experienced. The corporal hadn’t been wearing a name tag and the man had never revealed his name or properly introduced himself. For a brief period, like in the F-14, I was the somebody and they were the nobodies. It was an odd feeling, which made me wonder if I was really cut out for the career that had likely been chosen for me.
I walked out of the building to where the corporal stood waiting behind what had to be the same truck I’d been brought to the building in. I dutifully crawled into the back of the thing. The corporal pulled the canvas down and, once again, I was in almost total darkness. It wasn’t a good feeling, but it was better than ending up deeper inside the brig, I knew.
The corporal had never said a word of goodbye or any of that. The truck began moving and I began waiting. My Seiko was back in the room at my old hotel, the one I hadn’t had time to call to have belongings sent to Albuquerque. I waited impatiently, trying to figure out how many hours a commercial flight from Okinawa to LAX, or wherever I might be flying would take. I couldn’t pass the time reading the file inside the bag as there was almost no light so I counted my breaths. Fourteen to a minute, four hundred and twenty to the half hour. The trip took just over forty-five minutes before the truck made its only stop. I wondered about the lack of traffic control devices but there was no way to resolve the mystery of how the vehicle made the trip without stopping.
A portion of the forward bulkhead moved, and a voice yelled back.
Naha Airport, at your service,” the invisible person said, “you can let yourself out.”
I moved the canvas and climbed down. The truck was moving away before I was fully down, but I managed not to fall, shaking my head in wonder. Who were these people I was supposedly teamed up with and why did they have to act with such silent suspicion and even a bit of fear, like I had some communicable disease, or worse?
“Just great,” I said to myself, standing in the sun. I presumed it was mid-day but had no real idea as I went into the main entrance to the modern-looking airport, no doubt built or rebuilt with U.S. taxpayer dollars. I had no ticket, no idea what airlines I was supposed to be on, or any other information.
“How in hell am I supposed to figure this puzzle out?” I said aloud, once I got inside the main hall of the airport lobby.
A long counter extended from one side of the airport to the other as I walked further inside. All the signs were in English with Japanese notations right above the English words.
I stopped at the counter, which was mostly empty. I caught the eye of a uniformed man and held out my dip toward him. He pointed to someone sitting at the counter further toward the far wall. When I got to him he merely held out his hand for my passport, which he glanced at, barely opening it at all.
“Hill,” the man said, shrugging one shoulder. “FTA gate 17 in one hour.”
The man made no move to either search me or take the blue envelope I carried in my left hand. I was relieved, to not only avoid that but to be expected, even if it was in using Chris Hill’s name. The man opened a vertical panel set into the counter and I stepped through.
“FTA,” I whispered to myself as I began walking the long length of the airport. When I came upon Gate 17 I was surprised. There was a 747 nosed into the window. I was able to read Flying Tigers along the side of the plane’s fuselage, as well as angled down the side of the 747’s huge tail. FTA had to stand for Flying Tiger Airlines but there was no ‘airlines’ printed anywhere on its surface. There was nobody in the waiting area so I sat down, trying to relax, although I knew in my heart of hearts that I would never really relax until I hit the ground in the continental United States.
Half an hour later, and suddenly, seemingly almost out of nowhere throngs of people showed up for the flight. Just before they came through the low uncontrolled gate an attendant appeared at the counter. I’d missed her approach because she’d accompanied the flight crew, all of whom took seats near the door down to the plane, as there was no passenger tunnel attached to the gate.
The attendant was polite and efficient, as I explained who I was and produced my diplomatic passport. The woman merely glanced at it and then pulled out a small folder from underneath the counter and slid it across the small panel at the top of that counter toward me.
I took the envelope and opened it, as she waved me aside. I went back to my seat, which wasn’t my seat anymore, as the crowd had taken up all the previously available ones. I leaned against a bare spot on one wall and examined the contents of the envelope. The envelope contained a copy of my ticket to LAX and a boarding pass. I was in seat 3A, which made me smile, as I assumed that somehow, maybe because of my ascension to Hill’s diplomatic status, I was in first class. The trip back home would be a bit more comfortable than I’d thought.
Boarding began with the crew departing first and then everyone else in one muddled mass. I waited. Being in first class meant that I didn’t have to worry and I had no carry-on bag, except for the envelope holding my stuff and the paperwork I was instructed to not read because I wouldn’t like the contents of what it said, which, of course, meant that I had to read it.
I boarded the plane last, climbing up one set of stairs attached to the airport, crossing the tarmac, and then climbing the steep staircase into the forward cabin of the plane. I climbed into disappointment. There was no first class. All the seating aboard was nine abreast, with two on each side of the two aisles and five in the center. My seat was an aisle seat in the center section.
The plane finished loading, taxied, and then took off in short order. Once in the air, I sat back to think before opening the blue envelope, which, in small letters, I hadn’t noticed before indicated it was a diplomatic bag. That made me smile.
“What else would it be?” I whispered aloud.
“Sir?” the young man next to me said.
“Oh, sorry,” I replied, struck by being called sir for the first time in quite a while.
I moved to zip open the bag but then stopped, as the young man spoke again.
“Nice bag,” he said, conversationally.
I exhaled gently, trying to be patient. I knew the flight was one of almost fifteen hours non-stop. There would be plenty of time to get acquainted and talk things over but I was becoming nervous about what might be written on the paper inside the bag. I didn’t need any suspicion or trouble, however, so I decided to wait before opening the bag.
“Thanks,” I replied, knowing that a single word wouldn’t end the conversation. I waited, but the wait wasn’t for long.
“You must be with the Department of State,” he went on.
“Yes,” I answered, before changing the subject. “What do you do that takes you to Okinawa, or are you from there?”
“I work in sales for a bicycle company named Trek, if you’ve ever heard of it. Okinawa’s like Guam in that bicycles are the most common form of transportation, so there’s a big market we want to break into.”
I sat and thought, slipping the blue bag into the folder set into the back of the seat in front of me. The man wasn’t likely a salesman. I had little evidence for my conclusion, other than that he’d called me sir in introducing himself to a conversation. Not only wasn’t he likely a salesman but he was nervous hence why he was talking to me at all. I tried to think of some reason why he’d be nervous, or even slightly fearful, and only one thing came to mind.
“Trek,” I said, rubbing my chin, as if in contemplation. “That company’s a real comer in the market. The new carbon fiber frame coming to market should catapult you guys into the forefront of the business.”
The young man changed before me, becoming expressive and enthusiastic as he described this new development in bicycle technology. I waited and listened, almost wanting to smile to myself, but remaining instead impassive but interested. Finally, after a full ten minutes, he stopped talking for a few seconds.
“Trek isn’t making a carbon fiber frame,” I said, quietly. “I made that up, so who are you really?”
“You made that up?” the young man asked, his voice going all shaky.
“Keep your voice down,” I said quickly, trying to settle him down. “What’s your name and who sent you?”
“Tom Kingston,” he replied. “I’m with the Agency, like you.”
I had to smile at that comment. He might be with the Agency all right but he was a long way from being like me.
“Why are you here, Tom? I asked.
“To protect you,” Tom replied, miserably. “There were death threats.”
“Are you armed?” I asked, my voice being lowered to a whisper as I leaned toward him.
“Yes,” he whispered back, looking around. He held his coat slightly open for me to partially see that he was wearing a shoulder holster with an automatic
upside down inside it.
“Have you ever shot it?” I asked, motioning for him to let go of the coat.
“At the range, once, in training,” he replied. “I’m an analyst, but I’m all they had to send for your protection.
“My protection?” I said, slightly shocked. “Now, without anyone seeing,” I said, grabbing the folded blanket that had come with the seat and pulling it apart, “Cover yourself and pass the weapon to me.”
“What are you going to do with it?” he asked, while he slowly complied with my request.
I took the weapon in my left hand, seeing enough of it under the blanket to realize it was an Austrian Steyr. I pulled the blue bag from where I’d put it, got it under the blanket, and eased the handgun into it.
“The only danger on this flight is this weapon going off, so we no longer have to worry about that.”
“Have you ever shot anybody?” Tom unexpectedly asked.
I looked over at him and wondered how old he was and why anybody in their right mind would have sent him armed aboard a passenger plane. The CIA was again sending me into a sort of bewildering belief, once again, that quite possibly it wasn’t nearly as well held together as I’d thought originally.
I took the sheaf of papers from the bag, glad I had it, as when we landed, I wouldn’t have to explain what I was doing with the Steyr. I sure as hell wasn’t giving it back to the near child next to me.
“How old are you?” I asked him absently, as I began to read the first page of the document.
“Twenty-three,” he said, and then launched into the telling of his life story.
I ignored him, nodding from time to time, although nothing was getting through to me because of what I was reading. I wasn’t going home. I was being sent to training directly from LAX to Cape May, New Jersey, a place I’d never been nor even knew where it was. I put the papers back into the bag.
There was no way I was going to Cape May, no matter what orders I might be given. I had to get home and see my wife, my daughter, and my cat, as well as visit the agency I was supposed to be running. Herbert was meeting me at the airport, according to the document, which was intended for him, I knew. I sat back as the kid ran on about himself. He was the same age as I was when I’d been in the Valley, and just about as naïve as I’d been. He wasn’t a kid at all, I realized and what I was might be yet to be determined.
great read
how did they communnicate so qulcy in thies dYs?
Loving this
Okinawa camp gonsalves
cobra blood
good food
Only you Rich! Cobra blood. I heard about drinking that with it mixed in alcohol in Vietnam but never got to the sear to find out out more. Communication was hard in those times, however, the under ocean wires had been laid years before to be able to reach almost any place in the world…although it was frightfully expensive and time consuming to get through. There were only a few ‘Telstar’ satellites back then but they weren’t up there for normal telephonic communication. Thanks for the short but great comment.
Semper fi, my friend,
Jim
Jim,
Continuing to tie up the ‘loose ends’ of this mission while getting info on your next – Prior to getting any kind of ‘de-brief’ on this one. Not so good on that part.
And your ‘brig brief’ is done by a guy in “a gray suit”? Since I thought you folks wore black suit, seems this was a quick ‘tell’ he was from somewhere else. Agree on how to address NCOs by their proper rank – It was and I think still is important to them.
And then he “delicately opened it”, the file, before stating “I don’t like dealing with men like you,”? First off, how do you ‘“delicately open” a file? Secondly, the guys a dick. You both work for the country – He should know that your missions were probably more dangerous. And it seems his mission included “dealing with men like you” to get home. Why start off the meeting on an adversarial footing? Kinda FU and stupid. Maybe the agency was his primary desire, but he didn’t make the grade. Regardless, stupid.
And then came the “dip”. Seems he knew a bit of the process, but either was not that familiar or didn’t really care, as he stated he didn’t know what the process was called. Either way, makes me wonder just how many “men like you” he’d ever dealt with. Also makes me wonder just how competent he was with dealing with “men like you”. Couple that with his “shaking hand” while lighting a cigarette indicates to me that he wasn’t that far from needing a Depends. And who chose the song for the Walkman and why put it on there in the first place?
And then getting a bag indicating you were attached to the State Department? Maybe they wear Gray suits. And did he really think you wouldn’t look inside the bag? Out the door and into the truck, with no ‘goodbyes’, ‘have a nice day’, nuthin’? I think they wanted to get rid of you ASAP as well.
But a 15 + hour flight in 1st class would be nice. Bummer that didn’t work out. At least you got an aisle seat. But then ‘they’ sent an analyst to protect you because of death threats? Yoy. And “they’ didn’t it was important enough to give you a ‘heads up’ about the death threats?
And for someone to think you wouldn’t want to see your wife and family and finish setting things up for the folks in SK to finish the mission? Looking forward to seeing how all this gets settled when you get back.
As always, regards my friend,
Doug
The Agency was a lot like the Marine Corps when it came to considering wives or kids of the people they were working with. “If we wanted you to have a wife,” a D.I. in the Corps once said, “we would have issued you one.” There’s that attitude. Most field agents get and stay divorced or they quit or retire early if they can. Field work is really wearing on the body as well as the mind…although the challenge of both of those things can also be very rewarding. Thanks for the usual introspective and self-soul searching you do in thinking about the work and then expounding about it on here…and the compliments are truly sublime and well appreciated too.
Your friend,
Jim
Cool chapter. Very spyish. Shows the tremendous power and reach of the Agency.
I always thought Flying Tiger was a freight operator. I’ll have to research it.
Once again, thank you for an engaging read. Keep ’em coming.
Regards, Tim
Flying Tiger Airlines also flew passengers for a bit back there, and, of course, that’s illustrated in the story.
Back in the day there were still airlines flying passenger planes with only one class, unlike the nightmare of weird classes today…and a whole lot less comfort, space and care. Only eight major airlines share the U.S. market today and they are basically a monopoly…now being able to get away with outrages like charging for luggage, no real food service and tiny thin seats suited mostly for midgets. Once I came to realize the full power of having the CIA the other intelligence agencies and the U.S. military behind me, that part was awesome.
Semper fi,
Jim
I flew from Da Nang to McChord AFB on a FTA plane in July ’69.
Yes, Bill, FTA was very real at the time and I loved the name too. I was sorry when my old classmate from the Basic School, Fred Smith, melded the company into FedEX in 1989. Thanks for the verification.
Semper fi
Jim
This is such a tangeled web how can you even tell the story great job
God gave me this memory…or cured me with it. I have no other explanation. I write what happened s best I can remember
it and then you have to decide what your belief system can accept.
Thanks for the great comment.
Semper fi,
Jim
Talk about service with a smile!!! Reread this twice to keep up with the fast pace and hidden Easter eggs. Seems like you’re a lot more important than you think, Your trip out of Korea was like what it was, a spy novel!!! Keep them coming and Semper fi Sir!!
Egress from that one was difficult and would have been much easier if I’d been more seasoned, but how do you get properly seasoned without being out there. 197 countries, or so, thousands of language variations and also religions. Training can be about central stuff, like shooting, weapons, communications and such, but most of the detail (that can mean life or death) has to be acquired by being out there.
Semper fi,
Jim
Mr. Strauss, Sir,
Yes, you get a Sir from me, and even though I might not use it properly, my intent is to show you respect in the only way I can think of. In terms of this trip to Korea, I’m trying to figure out what you did in the first place that made the Koreans upset. I get that Chris Hill was upset because he just seems to be the kind of guy that needs to be upset about something and needs someone to blame for it. But like I say, I can’t figure out why the Koreans were. What have I missed?
Thank you for sharing your story.
The Korean’s were a whole lot smarter than they were given credit for being.
They quite accurately saw me as some sort of unknown threat…even though I was not.
The way of life out there when you arrive in countries as an American attempting to do ‘business’ of any kind.
People back here have no idea.
Semper fi, and the thanks for the interesting and informative comment.
Jim
Jim,
You sure leave a wake behind you everywhere you go. Thanks for my weekly fix on your wild adventures of yore.
Who provided Tom to be your ‘bodyguard’ to protect you on the flight?
Blessings to you and yours.
THE WALTER DUKE. Some of the mysteries of the work and the story cannot be resolved, simply because I would have to make up some resolution that I don’t really have any idea about. Going backwards to try to find out who did what wasn’t really available at the time. Reports went in about my own rendition of the mission but I never saw any others. The Agency takes in information…it does not put it out unless vitally necessary, and the comfort and understanding of agents in the field is not part of that formula.
Semper fi, my friend
Jim
LT, what danger? You’re on a FTA headed to LAX over international waters. Nothing to worry about unless some foreign national spy is also aboard. What a FNG trip first time out of the sand box. Guessing all the way on who, what, when and where. Keep’em coming. Great reading.
One time, in the future of the story, I rode quite comfortably and secure across the world. Midway through the flight, and I was in first class, the bathroom failed up front. I had to go to the very rear of the plane to use the restroom. As I passed one row I saw someone I recognized, which was astounding. The good fortune was that the person was a twin brother, twin brother to a terrorist I’d been a party to ridding the world of. Thanks to his being a twin and the bathroom being out I could prepare for what was likely waiting for me when we arrived. You are not always safe in the air. Nothing happened on the remainder of the flight but all hell broke use in Vienna when we landed.
Semper fi,
Jim
The truck was moving away before I was fully down, but I managed not to fall, shaking my head in wonder – I thought that was SOP as it seems to be the way I remember those events !! 😉
Hard to believe you never knew FTA was run by the Agency as they brought in and took out agents from neighboring countries back then !!
I knew nothing about Flying Tigers, although that would cnange, and certainly at that time had no clue to just how the CIA penetrated so many operations and companies around the world. There was no manual on what was what when I began field work, and if there was, well I was writing a good bit of it without knowing that.
Semper fi, and thanks for the great comment, as usual.
Jim
This one was actually funny. That nervous CIA clerk with the Steyr was comedic relief
It really was sadly funny although not tragic. The poor kid, although he was bright enough to take direction. I was a new agent to the field but not to life itself but I wasn’t an FNG like the kid. At least I did not have to put him up on point.
Semper fi,
Jim
As an officer, you probably always knew where you were going. As a draftee, we were dropped in the middle of nowhere with no information on where we were .
A new 2nd Lieutenant is like a draftee in many ways. Training does not teach life. It teaches analytical detail in many areas fut dow not prepare you for a real combat sitution. Never ever forget that the places and people that train for combat are doing so to assure that the troops and Marines actually go into combat, not desert or avoid it. So, they can’t exactly tell the truth about how it really is. The Battle of the Bulge…remember that famous WWII struggle to face and hold against the last onslaught of the Nazi war machine? Heroic, great fitting units and men. Nobody, but nobody, ever discusses the over 29,000 U.S. troops that deserted during that conflict. Combat trains you by killing you and that is immediately learned when you are truly in the shit. Nobody wants to die. Nobody wants especially to die like so many do in open combat. Hence, most will do anything not to be in combat once they learn about it. Just the way real life is.
Semper fi,
Jim
Well, Jim, not quite as exciting as some previous chapters, but interesting, nonetheless.
I had realized that you were winging it, with absolutely no training, and am glad that you are finally getting “educated”.
I think I was 9 when our neighbors in Philly took me along for a two-week holiday to Cape May. Was just a beach town way back then, about 70 years ago.
Got my copy of “The Last Ten Days, and am avidly reading it. I was on a carrier about that time, with two A-1 squadrons and two A-4 squadrons. Lots of close air support work before we rotated to Yankee Station.
I am still surprised at the casualties in the Valley, and more surprised that anyone survived. Makes me glad I signed up for Naval Aviation.
Your current situation, enroute to New Jersey, foretells a new and possibly more dangerous future, however. Glad to know that writing your autobiography proves that you survived.
Semper Fi, my friend. But please write faster, as I feel as though I am on my last downhill run.
Craig, as always, your final words make me shudder. I don’t want to lose you even though I don’t really know you…and I think some other readers must feel the same way as they have read your poignant and well written comments along with me. Thanks for being such a steadfast reader and supporter of mine. Yes, I got better, like in the valley, as I went along. After the Nam I should have been sent to Quantico to train new officers. After the CIA I should have been sent to Charm School to teach new field agents. That’s not the reality of life in those areas, however. How many would go if they really knew? In both cases I volunteered, but was immediately turned down…and both knew my background. That was on purpose. I write now, the truth as close as I can make it, of those days and nights…and reach are than I once thought I would but also those who simply can’t believe the story because the sources that send people into combat also control the message of what that’s like. It’s like the idiocy of Top Gun school Tom Cruise stuff, or Mel Gibson in Vietnam or Sylvester coming home as the totally stupid Rambo. I persevere, whoever…and I worry about you.
Semper fi, my friend
Jim
Jim, those schools turned you down because you are a realistic person, and they need the instructors to constantly be really upbeat and always looking at smoothness and things always going to plan.
You, on the other hand, know that things rarely go smoothly, and often you need to react very rapidly, and correctly for any give situation. Not good for young, impressionable people. Those pie-in-the sky types – “Wow! I’m gonna be a slick super spy!”
Craig, West Point offered to allow me to give a lecture but my wife, when I was ready to go nixed it. “What do you suppose they are selling to all those young men and women?” she asked. “They’ve read your work and you’re sure as hell not encouraging young people to go off and get killed, or worse. They want you to come because you’ve created dissension in the ranks with the books that one professor bought for his class. They’ve invited you to eviscerate you…and as bright as you are you’re not ready for that kind of full frontal attack. The Gunny would tell you the same damn thing.” I didn’t go, although I still marginally regret that I did not face into that fire. My wife is a bright woman, like the Gunny, like so many Sergeant Majors. I didn’t go. Thanks for the great comment, as usual.
Semper fi, my friend,
Jim
This chapter was a curve ball to say the least. How the heck did this kid get stuck with this gig? What’s next? Is the Gunny going to meet you at Cape May?
Charles, the Gunny retired to New Mexico so, although I will cover our meeting in the next volume,
he was never ‘in play’ with international intrigue, adventure or contact. It was definitely strange times
in Agency work back in those days, but those days were not that long from the actual creation of the Agency,
or conversion over from OSS. Thanks for the tongue in cheek comment here my friend.
Semper fi,
Jim
Soviet Union was the only enemy and Asia was a disaster because of RVN, which didn’t exist anymore! So you are part of “Laugh In”! Funny our trip to Eastern Europe, Serbia not in EU, but Bulgaria & Romania is but separate, indicates the naive have shifted with lack of a real threat.
Great stuff, I keep comparing my slide through these times and seeing the same fog but with no purpose!
You were out there too my great friend, and you are absolutely right, the USSR was an octopus everywhere back then,
and involved already in Korea while I was working through and in that country. I was still unaware of the exposure
although the training would encompass all of that later on. The Cold War was in full swing but not always apparent from
country to country. Thanks for the input of your own background and you analysis of my own.
Semper fi,
Jim