I stood with my right-hand flat, the dirty index finger of that hand slightly glued to my head by a light bond of drying mud. I stared into Clews’ eyes, waiting for an answer. Was I going to live, or die with him? Was I going to do something terrible to everyone inside the cave in order to allow me to live just a bit longer?
“Are all the supplies aboard the 46 or you want us to unload the 47s?” the Gunny asked, the tone of his voice matter-of-fact, like all of us jammed into the cave were sitting at some warehouse desk instead of tensely standing and closely facing one another.
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Operation Deleware was Apr 1968. Gunny said it was 5 months ago; if this is Sep 1969, it was 1 yr 5 mo ago……
Incredible how a song can not only capture the essence of the moment, but can bring memories roaring back with astonishing clarity.
Yes, gifted songwriters are special indeed.
How they could get it just right and never be around what their lyrics might be applied so perfectly to…
amazing…
Semper fi,
Jim
You wrote: “Half a minute later the giant Praying Mantis of a machine closed its ramp and leaped into the air, (it’s) rear rotor rising rapidly at first, before the one in front.” Edit needed: change “it’s” to “its”
Thanks Steve, for the editing help.
Semper fi,
Jim
Sir, due to nothing more than a lucky lottery number I have not earned the right to comment on your tale. But I want to thank you for maybe helping me understand friends who came home but never quite got here. Thank you for your service & thank you for sharing. Jack Malone
You do not have to earn a right to comment on here.
This place is for all those who have come to understand over time what being
in real combat is like and the meaning of serving and believing in those that did serve.
That you did not go is good news, as you will discover in the reading.
Most did not come back from the A Shau in any physical form…
Semper fi, and you are most welcome here….
Jim
Arrogance, by Marine officers killed a lot of Marines. They were trained as All American warriors, hard, square jawed, and trained as invincible. The could not wait to engage this ragtag enemy an charge the hill. By the time they figured out the NVA an Charlie were really good they and most of their men were dead.I can still the map of Death Valley, it is burnt into my memory.
Yes, burned into my own memory forever, with some of the grid coordinates still right there if I need them along the Bong Song.
Thanks for your accurate and revealing comment.
Semper fi,
Jim
Tears come from the tired and weary that have spent so much time in the bush with the death of follow brothers all around and being thank full to be alive. I know… The memories…
Thanks Jim, I think…
You are most welcome Mike. This accidental rendition of my war in Vietnam just keeps on pouring out, every couple of
days I put a segment together after reliving it all in my mind. An interesting odyssey not seen that way when I lived it.
I thought it would be over and done if I ever got home. Wow.
Semper fi,
Jim
Another moving chapter, Jim. I look forward to every one and read and reread each line as it reminds me of my tour. Though not the same as yours, it changed me as it changed us all. Happy Birthday, Marine Corp from an Army Vet. Have a Great Veterans Day to all.
Thanks for the birthday wishes. I guess I grow and bit acrid and bitter about the treatment of returning military
veterans in our culture on my Facebook page but here, not so much. Maybe because here I am have the warm comfort of being
surrounded by brothers and sisters….thanks for being one of those…
Semper fi,
Jim
you wrote: “What the hell?” I said, knowing the radio and the stalling, and probably even the departing (figures) strange behavior at the CH-47 were all linked, but not able to figure out how. Edit needed: “figures” should be “figure’s”
Got it Steve, and thanks for the help here as you guys are all the editorial assistance (other than over-worked Chuck) that
I have…
Semper fi,
Jim
I really have to smile thinking back when I started to read your first book. I purchased it upon recommendation of a fellow vet. As I open the book and noticed there was a disclaimer that it was fiction I was immediately disappointed. Frankly, I much prefer actual biographies and military history. The very beginning Account of your interaction with the general cause me to think that “this book is going to be ridiculous work of fiction. “. Boy, was I ever wrong. It didn’t take me but a couple of chapters to be completely hooked. I greatly appreciate these installments and your comments and interactions with readers. It Gives great insight into the story. I love this work of “fiction.” By the way, are the operation names in the story the ones you actually used? Did you remember the all?
Yes, the plan and operation names are real.
We are headed into Delaware right now in the story.
You can look the Army operation up that preceded our visit and what happened to them
and why that part of the valley became known as Delaware. All the places are real.
You understand the fiction part so I don’t have to go into that.
Semper fi,
Jim
I think we all know why the ‘published’ book is listed as fiction
In 69 my dad was a CO of a FB, He was called in to direct fire because the FO had been killed. When approaching the LZ he saw a chopper and two APC’s burning on the ground. He said the tracers were so thick you could walk on them. Sounds a bit like that army unit that got chewed up.
I dont talk about Nam with vets, cause I wasn’t there. But your letter home stirs up memories. They would move families out so quick. Sometimes five moving vans would show up on a Saturday, fanned out in the neighborhood. The empty seats in the class room as my friends and classmates left without a word. We dependents knew.Still hurts.
Yes, like the missing man formation the Air Force is famous for. We died like flies during that way
and it was all kind of quiet back here in the states.
When my wife answered the door in Daley City while I was away, two Marine’s were there knocking.
She was living with the wife of another Marine officer over there at the same time.
She said, simply: “which one?” They didn’t understand.
I’d told her that they only sent a telegram if I was wounded.
If I was dead there would be two Marines at her door.
When they said it was me she went straight down.
The real stuff from the real days…
Semper fi,
Jim
Happy Birthday Lieutenant and Happy 242 to our beloved Corps. Keep up the good work.
Semper Fidelis
Thanks Gunny. Love writing that word to this day. Gunny. Thanks Gunny.
I owe you and all other Gunny’s out there…and he knows who I am writing about if he ever reads this and is still alive…
Semper fi,
Jim
I wrote this after I started reading your story. They started bring back memories of my time with the 3rd marines during operation Dewey Canyon 98-99.
As a young man, I went to a place called Viet Nam with hopes and dreams.
I was sent into a valley. With those hopes and dreams alive.
I returned from the valley an old man without my youth and soul.
From some of the things I had seen and done.
In that valley called the A Shau.
Poetry, reaching into everyone’s chest who reads it and tearing at their heart.
Like my own. I understand. Others from that Valley fully appreciate and understand.
I am so sorry you had to go and I’m so happy you made it back. Semper fi,
and Happy Birthday, Marine!
Jim
Have the years wrong should be 68-69
I am not sure what you are referencing here Pat. Happy birthday thought and Semper fi,
Jim
I was there too the most successful operation of the Vietnam war for the Marines the3rd received the Army Presidential Unit Citation for that Remember the Brothers that didn’t make it back happy birthday brothers
Thanks for coming in on this site and writing about it.
Semper fi,
Jim
Tomorrow is Veteran’s day and I will attend a small celebration in my little town and once be surrounded by those who know what it was like, WWII getting fewer each year, Korea, a war forgotten by most but never them, Vietnam, my war where I grew and guys from Dessert Storm, OIF And OEF, that are still in the news, I was with them too in 2008. Lots changed over all those years but one thing didn’t and will never change and that is the brotherhood of Veterans. So on this one day I will feel the warmth of a shoulder against mine too, and remember.
Yes, feel the warmth of me and others on here who join you in this time of strange diffident patirotism, when so much of what some consider the price of liberty has been either disregarded or forgotten.
We are banded together as we go through life, our exploits following us in our own collected memories but mostly not shared by a public that thinks a hero is something in costume, or that attemding a war at home as fighting it.
We have to be okay with this because the general public does not know what being a warrior is all about. They cannot know. To know is to have died or ciruculated among the dying and dead and survived, only to have survived and found to be
the product of something so unbelievable that it is not. So, for the most part, you and I and others on here, outside the band of brothers that comprise us, are silent as we watch…and wait…and hope that no more warriors have to be
made, no unwilling real heroes decorated…and no more of such young exhuberant souls crossed over.
Semper fi, and it don’t mean nuthin.
Jim
Powerful…I salute you sir…takes me to ‘don’t mean nuthin”.
Thanks for the great tersely delivered compliment. I much appreciate that and the shared understanding I feel emenating out from your words on here.
Semper fi,
Jim
Happy birthday, Lt., from another of the walkers of the Valley. I’m still engrossed with your story and remembering more things as you tell of your things. Bit it’s all good nowadays. I haven’t the fear that I had there and I brought home with me, Somewhere in the 8 years of drink and drugs after, the fear and most of the nightmares left me.
Thanks, and Semper Fi!
Not many of us around…alive Andrew. I hope I am getting the descriptions of that place right. I see it all the time and dream it every once and awhile.
And now I write it hoping that guys like you will monitor and keep me on track. We are moving north, as the valley spread out before us…and maybe you will
recall those open fields of fire….sometimes good and sometimes so terrible…
Semper fi,
Jim
Lt claws is going to find out why you told them not to go. Too bad he will take a lot of good men with him. Hope he can register his position and give you a chance to help them with some friendly artillery fire.
The best intentions sometimes went to bad. ANd so many had such good intentions but
no knowledge, understanding or real experience. Like back here, everyone wants to give adice and then
have it taken no matter what the price. Just part of the human condition, but there many man died from
such actions…
Semper fi,
Jim
Happy Birthday to the Marine Corps. And Happy Veterans Day. Thank You for your service. And a great big Welcome Home. I wish that I could salute you one on one SIR. But this my little salute from all of us that will never meet you one on one. Thank You.
It is terrific to have you and others like you on this site. I know I will never meet but a rare few.
I can live with that because before I started writing this I kind of thought I was mostly alone. Not anymore.
Thanks for being and writing on here and saying what you are saying…
SEmper fi,
Jim
Dittos what Billy says. Too young to be in at the time but was reading every report in the papers at the time. All you veterans of Viet Nam were treated badly here at home by the radicals but there were some of us who saluted you and are proud of you. Semper Fi!
Many people treated us really well.
The worst treatment I got was by the Navy medical personnel at the hospital in Oakland.
I don’t know why.
One of the other veterans told them I was “Junior” and how awful my reputation in the Nam was.
One neighbor in San Clemente was awful until he moved.
Someone set off a quarter pound of C-4 in front of his house on July 4th, one year.
He thought it was me.
Occasionally, at a party early on or work somebody would have a passingly negative comment but I ignored that.
Most people were fine.
Like today.
Although I still have some C-4 left, just in case.
Semper fi,
Jim
Happy Birthday Jarheads!
That is all.
That is indeed quite enough SCPO!!!
Semper fi,
Jim
Jim,you had me from the first chapter. My civilian jetliner landed a Tonsunute air base near Saigon. On my flight we were a mixed bag of FNG’s and troops returning for another tour. Being an E-2 Sailor i was put on a bus to the Annapolis Hotel where I was given my in country orders a couple pairs of marine greens (wtf I was a sailor)a pair of jungle boots and a M-16 welcome to vietnam. I spent my 12 months on the river south of Saigon as an Engineman working on river patrol boats PBR’s. We also listened to armed forces radio to get our news on what was happening in the bush. Great music piss poor news. Sorry for rambling but your descriptions dredge up long dormant memories. I can’t wait to learn the fate of the troops heading to Bill 975. Thanks for your story I tell every vet I meet to give it a read.
Respectfully
Third class Engineman
Richard C Linn
proud to be called a “river rat”
I cannot thnak you enough Richard, for the referrals and bringing in more vets. Lot of us out here but the number is becoming more rarified all the time.
Semper fi, and Happy Birthday. River rats were and remain so cool!!!
Semper fi,
Jim
Amazing,Beautiful, Powerful,and Emotional segment. God is definity with you on this purpose. God bless you with His strength.
Thanks Pebble, who sounds more like a boulder.
Much appreciate the blessing, as I go about living in my ‘church of the world’
since no local operation is going to have me.
Seems I have a tendency to fill up the room and that makes some uncomfortable.
Semper fi, and thanks for the great wishes and the compliment…
Jim
If it is you and God, that is enough and I will always be there in spirit and prayer. It is okay to be bigger than life because you are unique and special. That is why God chose you for this Special Purpose! God bless you and He loves you.
I know that is you Henderson and I love it. The Relentless Pebble. Thanks for your relentlessness.
I receive your messages and cannot help smiling…
Semper fi, and love
Jim
Happy Birthday, Brother Jim. Semper Fidelis.
Tim
Thank you Tim, and Happy Marine Corps Fucking Birthday to you too!!!! UuuuuuuRahhhhhhh!!!
Semper fi,
Jim
Happy birthday my brother!I’m sitting in a deer stand with my youngest son who is also a Marine. He’s home on leave for his wife’s grandmother’s funeral. I couldn’t pull my eyes away from the story long enough to even look out the windows for deer until I finished the chapter! Semper Fi and happy Veterans Day too!
Thanks Johnny Appleseed…I much appreciate the image of you guys sitting there and maybe whispering about the details laid out in the story.
Makes me smile big
time.
Semper fi,
Jim
Another good chapter…I can almost feel like I am there..Officers thought they knew it all. B. Co. 7th ID 2/31st…Korea 1969/70
Belief systems form up like ice atop the water of still lake, and they are hell to thaw out. In combat, they can
kill you real real easy…and others around you.
Semper fi,
Jim
Holy shit you hit the nail on the head about “belief systems”. The source of a great deal of modern misery leading right up to the present. Also why “Huey Cobras”? Thanks for the great writing. We call it fiction so that we can tell the truth.
The Bell AH-1 Cobra was part of the Huey family of helicopters. Hence the usage.
Thanks for the comment about belief systems. Inflexible as they are, in all of us.
Thanks again for the compliment…
Semper fi,
Jim
First off, I wish you and yours a peaceful Veterans Day! This chapter is brilliantly written! It reads like a cross between a fever dream and an episode of Mash! Well done Jim! Semper Fi!
Fever Dream, and Mash, now there is a thought picture to contemplate and entertain.
Yes, there is some humor in that chapter and a good deal of fever.
Thanks for that analysis and comparison…
Semper fi,
Jim
Happy Birthday, Jim!
Happy Birthday right back at you Michael and thanks for that on this day on this page…
Semper fi,
Jim
Outstanding chapter, Happy Birthday Marine, I️ spent the day with 4th grade youngsters so excited to hear about the Marine Corps, bright eyed, clapping hands, then on to dinner with Vets from Combined Action teams, grunts, jet jockeys – what a great day, and to end it with your artistry. God Bless Sir, America is great today as in our time, just have to look up and onward. Semper Fi
Harry
Thanks Harry for that felicitation and the followup with the kids. Great comment on a great day.
UuuuuuRahhhhh!
Semper fi,
Jim
Do not go quite into the night….
I don’t think we Marines ever have or ever will. “Attitude is everything”, seems I’d heard that a time or two.
Great spellbinding writing James, thank you for taking the time.
SEMPER Fi & Happy Birthday.
Sgt, think nothing of it. I do. I just write away and am doing so right now
if I can get the comments down to a reasonable number.
But I love the comments because it is not me writing and also
because I am always surprised, mostly with smiles.
Thanks for the compliment…
Semper fi,
Jim
Jim… Could you clarify part of today’s story line for me? First, you wrote: “Clews, and both Johnson and Johnsen, led their unlikely collection of Marines and Army Special Forces back toward the rear CH-47, its tandem rotors already slowly turning, as if the machine had sensed the approach of the combined arms outfit.” And then shortly after LT Clews departed on the CH-47, you wrote: “The Stars and Stripes personnel went face down on the concrete to wait out the wind storm with the Special Forces team surrounding them.” Did the SF team split up with one element going to Hill 975 with LT Clews and the remaining team members remaining behind with the Stars & Stripes group? As a former SF officer (1966-77), I am skeptical that any operational SF team would be assigned to provide security for a Stars & Stripes junket. Just wondering…
Stars and Stripes flew in with no security other than the Cobra gunships.
Security was expected to be supplied by the unit they were flying into.
I think. I never asked. I just presumed.
The Special Forces unit, slaved together with Clews men, were the combined action team and,
although they must have had a connection to flying in at the same time as Stars and Stripes
I never asked about that either, or found out for that matter.
Thanks for the in depth analysis and putting it up on here.
Very cogent and you are making me think in detail…
Semper fi,
Jim
So some of the SF team remained with you and the Stars & Stripes group?
No, they all left as part of the combined action group.
The Stars and Stripes people depended on the Cobras
and existent unit they were visiting to provide security….
Semper fi,
jim
If all the SF team departed with LT Crews on the CH-47, then you’ll need to edit the following sentence: “The Stars and Stripes personnel went face down on the concrete to wait out the wind storm (with the Special Forces team surrounding them).” Need to delete words within parentheses.
Being done right now. My mistake….
Thanks for the edit.
Semper fi,
Jim
Thanks Steve.
Correction made.
Semper fi,
Jim
While we steamed thru a thphoon, my shipmates and I were on edge so we wouldn’t lose the main propulsion engines when the props came out of the water when one of those big waves passed under the ship, but nothing compares to the conditions and combat you men experienced in the A Shau, then you get a visit from some knucklehead Major that has no clue, personally, I’m glad they all left and that your men appropriated some of their supplies, nice work by the Gunny!!
I really had a hard time with the supply theft thing. Because we were all in combat together and in my heart I just knew that those guys were flying to die on a hill and would need whatever they had. Tough stuff when you’re in the field, at least it was for me. Thanks for the comment and for sharing your opinion about that sensitive issue. But then, you don’t know what comes later….yet….and I dod…
Semper fi, and Happy Birthday…
Jim
Stay he hissed .Sounds like the gunny kept a bull dog from tearing Clews to shreds .Lt, the first of the segment had me mad and the last very sad .You definitely have a talent . Semper fi
Thanks Roger, much appreciate the compliment and the sentiment. Happy Birthday!!!
Semper fi,
Jim
HAPPY BIRTHDAY USMC! Thank you Veterans for our Freedom !
Thanks for the Happy Birthday. I will tip up a hot Dr. Pepper (the Gunny’s favorite drink back home in New Mexico) and celebrate the event.
My wife isn’t too big on it, though, having done the Marine Corps thing on the sidelines of pain for so long….One day I will publish all the letters home I wrote in that muddy hell of a valley, since I have them all (save at least one that part of the envelope was in that amulet).
Semper fi,
Jim
Wow! Another great chapter. I have not commented in a while but, have been with you the whole way. Many (including myself) have commented on your ability to put us “there”. It really is that good. I have a whole new understanding about things that happened there and were never taught or portrayed in the fashion you present them. I am reminded of Wolfgang Petersens “Das Boot”. I read the book before seeing the movie. Both are 5 star. It was a very long book and all events were true. It was filled with boredom and terror…just like it was. When I finished the book I had a whole new understanding and perspective of how it affected the whole crew. They were just trying to live through it like everyone else. It is your ability to convey the emotions that make it special. I have the same feeling that this will happen when the end to the 3rd 10 days is finished. I can only speak for myself when I say I have become attached to the Marines you are with and realize nothing is for sure. Anything can happen at any second. BTW, When you post these in the early mornings I have been late to work because I have to read them first. It’s okay because I am self-employed and give myself a “warning”.
Thanks Lee. Much appreciate that lengthy and deep comment. A lengthy comment of intellect and great compliment, I might
add. I cannot thank you enough on this the birthday of the Marine Corps. I felt so distant from while I was in and only really a
close integrated part of after I was out…go figure.
Semper fi,
Jim
Lt as a door gunner in an out of hot lz’s you bring me back to thoughts of friends lost and found .days survived and given to to the sands of time only to return in the darkness of night when peace refuses to enter a tired and weary soul .semper fighting my friend
I don’t know whether bringing you back is a good thing or a bad thing. I don’t know what to do about that.
I just keep on laying it down all the way through that relentless bloody valley…
Semper fi,
Jim
Outstanding segment once again James…your writing makes us all hear, see, smell, and feel like we are right there beside you… the imagery that you paint is just outstanding…and the emotions…fear was ever-present and you are still not giving your leadership abilities enough credit…I, like everyone on here, await your next segment…and Happy Birthday Marines from an old Army guy…and Happy Veterans Day…
Happy Birthday Marine! Thanks for the great compliment and thinking better of me going through that than I did…or really do.
Semper fi,
Jim
Outstanding chapter Lt, & Happy Birthday to you,our Brothers & our Corps!!
thanks for the compliment and the celebratory Happy Birthday. Funny, that celebration, so unique to the Corps.
Semper fi,
Jim
HAPPY VETERANS DAY GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW FOR MY GREAT GRANDSONS . I am there Veterans Day Veteran
Thanks a lot Fred. Same to you and all the guys and gals on here….Tomorrow is the Marine Corps Birthday too! UuuuuuuRahhhhh!!!!
Semper fi,
Jim
God Bless. Semper Fi
Thanks for the simplicity of that compliment…
Semper fi,
Jim
Semper Fi LT. 242 and going strong.
You got it Terry….all the way, up the hill…
Semper fi, and Happy Birthday….
Jim
Man I’ve known plenty of asses, but you and your men have come in contact with more than everyone should have! Oh my now I don’t want to wait, for more. Ok I well do it.
There were so many guys coming from the rear area being given totally bad data.
They were set up by the mythology of war so powerful in almost every culture.
Thanks for the comment and your accurate assessment…
Semper fi,
Jim
When you write like this, it’s like Mozart with the music leaping from his fingers, no thought patterns or processes in play, just the melody demanding to be released, to be heard. In your case, to be seen and read. “I was among Marines, and they’d been consigned to their valley fate long before me, and although they’d likely suffer the same fate as me, they’d not go quietly surprised but deliberately kicking and screaming into the night. I watched the light wind play across the fronds of distant bamboo, waving across the tarmac at me like a bunch of thin overly tall stick men. I knew I’d fall instantly asleep once I was able to get back into the cave, like Zippo and Fusner inside. Nguyen squatted not five feet from where I stood. We’d exchanged our usual secret and knowing look. It was all either of us needed of one another, to let each of us know that anything either one of us needed from the other would be provided.”
These are images only the dead-tired and danger-numbed brain can conjure up, and the vividness of them are impervious to the ravages of time. Truly a stellar chapter, Strauss.
And, old traditions notwithstanding, it’s still fitting to wish you a Happy Birthday, Marine.
Conway comes back. And does he come back when he comes back. Now that is one hell of a comment and I cannot thank you enough for the praise
and the compliment, not only by repeating the sequence but by giving your opinion about its origian. Thank you John Conway. You make my heart soar like a butterfly.
Semper fi, happy birthday and thanks for being my friend, as well as brother,
Jim
I’ve never been “gone”. I’m on to these new chapters like stink on a skunk as soon as they come out. Some where along the line, some of my replies got zapped off into never-never land while “awaiting moderation”. I’m as hooked as the rest of your “lifers” on here.
SF
I answer all comments within days. Some real quickly but you have
to remember how many I get and how long it takes which takes time away from writing the segments.
And the rest of my life, which I really do have…in spite of how fucked up I may or may not be.
Thanks for writing and complaining. I need that motivation too!
And the huge compliment with the complaint, of course! Smile.
Semper fi,
Jim
Damn John Conway I thought only James had this writing stuff so pegged to the ground. You sir in that comment touched me placed I forgot I still had. Thank you and Mr Strauss for lighting a path I mainly walk the dark of the night. SEMPER FI MARINES, HAPPY BIRTHDAY and a REFLECTIVE VETERANS DAY to all hands on deck.
Thanks for that comment. Conway is something else again when it comes to intellect and life experience.
Wonderful man and all you have to do is read a little of his stuff to know that.
Semper fi,
Jim
Nice omage to Dylan Thomas, “Do not go gentle into that good night.”
I didn’t think of that but should have. Thank you for getting the attribution right.
Semper fi,
Jim
What is it about Marines? Regardless of the misery, mud, rain, lousy chow, bad water and race divisions, ‘a sheet of steel awaited the enemy should he try’. Where do we get this ‘never give up’ attitude’? Somewhere in boot camp it seeps into every fiber of our being.
Don’t know the answer. Nobody knows except maybe another Marine.
My dad knew it at Tarawa and Saipan. YOUR Marines and you LT, knew it in the Au Shau.
Great read, Jim. Semper Fi
There is sno doubt that there is something mystically special about Marines.
Like you, I don’t know where or when the magical change occurs.
Once it’s in it does not come out.
Amazing, really, and different among all the worlds military services.
Semper fi,
Jim
There certainly is something magical about Marines, especially since my oldest grandchild is one, Lauren graduated from Parris Island on 01 September, did her MCT at Camp Geiger, and is now at Camp Johnson for MOS training. She is already trying to get ‘downrange’,which is really upsetting her mother but I think I understand. Once upon a time I was afraid Vietnam would end before I got there. Who knew it would drag on long after I was through there. So, this thing I just read is a chapter from an unfinished book? I very much enjoyed the authenticity, it seemed ‘real’, I’m gonna have to find the other chapters. Happy Birthday, Marines, ands, if I may, Semper Fi!
The First Ten Days of Thirty Days has September has 39 chapters.
The Second Ten Days, almost done, will be over forty…so you have quite a few reads in front of you.
All of it is up on the Internet site for free if you want to read segment by segment.
The First Book is out on Amazon and the second will be out in hard print by the end of November.
Thanks for the compliment and for writing it up here…
you will be in good company if you come back here to read and write some more.
Mostly real guys and gals…
Semper fi,
Jim
The part where two Marines physically had each others backs brought back a telling of a Marine’s similar experience. This Marine came in as a FNG, 18 yrs old. Another Marine picked him as Platoon radioman even though he had zero training. Both the men are still alive and living their lives almost back in the World, like yourself. They meet in person every year somewhere, I guess something that helps them believe they really are in the real world. My friend speaks of sitting back to back in a small hole every night, he never sleeping, but likes to remind his friend that he slept while he was off watch. Lots of good natured talk about man crushes but only they know what that forced closeness really meant and still means. The story still has a life time of days to grow, but I for one will hurt inside if anyone’s premonitions are realized.
Your mission is still being accomplished by the powerful storytelling we are all being allowed to see even as it is written. Poppa J has probably run out of superlatives, so, damn good vignette LT, hope we see the next days very soon. Poppa
Working to get another segment up for Veterans Day Poppa. tomorrow will be a work day for sure.
Friday. Hopefully I can hide myself away far and deep enough to get the time without people coming to ask me what I’m writing!
Thanks for caring and thanks for the comment you made here about the radio man and his C.O.
Semper fi,
Jim
Thanks for another excellent read, LT. “PR” visits from REMF troops, especially for photo ops, always pissed me off. Glad you are coping!
I was not sure how many units had PR visits. Seems to me they came out to decimated units
in order to get the real ‘feel’ for the look and touch. And then they stole those things and lied
about the rest…after quickly getting the hell out of there, of course.
SEmper fi,
Jim
Probably one of the best segments yet… if I ever get to Lake Geneva again I wold like to stop by and shake your hand and thank you for bringing me that far into the A SHAU valley and what it was like to be in the company of such great soldiers.
Thanks a ton Steve and you will be most welcome here. I usually sit in the back corner of a coffee shop and work silently away, but man will I make
the exception to see anyone who comes through this site. It’s happened twice and it was wonderful. There are some real men and women on this site and it is a wonder
to meet them im person, or even here online. Never expected this.
Semper fi,
Jim
Hey there LT. I haven’t commented in a long while just wanted to let you know I haven’t missed a story yet and still enjoy your writing very much take care and thanks once again thank you and everyone who served for your selfless service!
Thanks for coming back in Josh. And thanks for that neat close to vets day compliment!
Semper fi,
Jim
I agree, a very emotional segment. I’m an artillery vet and spent a lot of time in radio contact with the infantry but your writings help me better understand what they were going through. God bless you!
It was an emotional time, although I am not always effective in getting it down on paper.
Thanks for noting that and for the compliment you wrote about my accuracy of putting it down.
Semper fi,
Jim
Another excellent chapter Sir!! I spent my 20 years in the Army half active duty and half in the SC National Guard. It took me 15 years to make E-6 (Staff Sgt. in the Army) and that is what I retired as. Mostly took so long due to officers like your Major there. I did find that in the Guard the officers tended to be more open to listening. Anyway, the officers I did like, respect, and get along with are much like yourself, You remind me of a few in particular. Those were and are men who I would follow to the ends of the desert.
Thank you for doing what you did, the younger generation of Soldiers and Marines remember and respect.
Andrew Luder (SSG Army Ret.)
122nd Combat Engineers
2003-2004 Operation Iraqi Freedom
Thanks you most kindly Staff Sergeant. My real hsart is with the non-coms becuase it is non-coms that kept me alive.
That taught me for real. That made me realize that were were Marines together not officers and enlisted apart.
Sempper fi, and with great appreciation…
Jim
Simply outstanding writing. Thank you for such a heart wrenching story.
Thanks Jack, your compliment is really great to read and expecially the fact that you wrote it on here for all to read.
I write on, with the fuel of your comments powering me through…
Semper fi,
Jim
Staggered as usual. Bounced around physically, mentally and emotionally like a freaking ping pong ball doesn’t half say it. One begins to get a pretty clear handle on who’s walking out. Only feel for the guys they drag into their follies. “Cluster fluster”, like I posted last chapter.
Thanks for the compliment and the writing it up on here.
Semper fi,
Jim
Jeezus Jim another gut punch , so Clews is really clueless ? I am keeping my fingers crossed that Fusner could not accurately predict his own death
Clews was just typical, I figured out. Talked to by the guys in the rear, he bought into a mythology that wasn’t true.
Who was going to tell them in the rear, sure as hell not the guys who might come in from combat.
Thaks for the comment and the compliment…
Semper fi,
Jim
Simply amazing writing. How you controlled your temper is beyond me. Realizing the respect you earned from the Gunny and your troops is hindered by exhaustion. Fate will take its toll on Hill 975 of the FNG Major and his men.Thank you for another riveting installment. Waiting to purchase the Second Ten Days.
Trying to figure things out while sleep-deprived, hungry, thirsty and in total fatique was the toughest part.
How do you think under such conditions, much less pay attention to the details that might kill you?
Semper fi,
Jim
Another link in a fascinating chain…
Still have a mix of “Crews” and “Clews.” Which is correct?
” I laid down next to Fusner, uncomfortable to be needed by my radio (officer) whom I thought of as being so tough.” Did you mean “operator”?
Wow, went through 3 tines looking for all the CREWS.
Fixed now, thanks.
And I am next to my operator.
Semper fi,
Jim
Riveting, and I love the comments also.
Thanks for that one work compliment and thanks for liking what the vets put up here in the way of comments. Some real deal guys come aboard and
let it all hang out. I never figured when I began.
Semper fi,
Jim
Damn Lt, been reading from the start. Lots of memories and surprisingly, healing I think. Thank you for this and keep them coming. Now I must find more tissues. Semper Fi
Thanks Greg, I am working on getting it all out here, for the first time ever.
Cathartic but at times painful too. Still, I thought and now really believe I have to finish.
Semper fi, and the thanks for the compliment…
Jim
“He was kidding,” not He’d was kidding as printed. Paragraph where Gunny was leaving to pick up bodies in the 46.
Story just keeps getting better, thanks.
Thanks for input, Robert
Corrected
Semper fi,
Jim
Got it and will make the changes. Thanks for the editing help, and the compliment at the end!!!
Semper fi,
Jim
Jim, Welcome home. Hope these are not too late for first edition. Dave.
while the (technician) filmed repeat takes from (their tripods). => (technicians) or (his tripod)
=> in 2 places the word tarmac is used which is asphalt, when this runway is probably concrete.
Thanks again David,
Really appreciate your help
Going to leave Tarmac as it is often used for “runway” regardless the material
Semper fi,
Jim
I can visualize the brass in the rear sitting around a table drinking whiskey not knowing shit about what’s really going on, but want to talk crap about you. Bet there would be a lot less names on the wall if there were people that really knew what they were doing.
I never got to know. The brass in the rear included battalion command. I would never had believed that because at Quantico it was always assumed that
superior command was right there in the field with you, only a stones throw in the distance, observing everything and sending out commands. The reality
was beyond shocking. The radio traffic with battalion, in my circumstance, was less than with the supporting artillery batteries or with air support.
I had a one on one relationship with Russ back at 2/11 in Ah Hoa and with Cowboy in the air. I had none with anyone, not one single soul, back at battalion.
So, I don’t know what the hell they were doing, except for certain avoiding coming out with us….
Semper fi,
Jim
The few typos I noticed have already been addressed but, damn! Fantastic writing James, makes me feel right there!
Thanks for the great compliment Joe. Keeps me going and makes me smile…
Semper fi,
Jim
The way you write, I can almost see, hear, taste and wear your words. Keep em coming!
Thank you Brad, as many times the next segment gets written on the ‘fuel’ of your compliments and comments.
Your comment is one of those motivational pieces. Small and short but powerful…
Semper fi,
Jim
This a great story although sad. But explains a great deal about Vietnam. My uncle was a cobra pilot, pushed in just about like you … ” can you fly?” “Then get in”
I really enjoy your writing
Thanks Greg, I most apprecizte your liking the writing. It is a sad story in so many places, but it’s also a story of going at life as it comes
at you. Head on when necessary, on the oblique and by the enfilade or in retreat when necessary. Is there heroism and valor is having no place
to run away to? I don’t know. All I had was my battered, bandaged, broken and FUBAR company of mixed up kids.
Semper fi,
Jim
Lt. Much as I admire Marines, I have to wonder at their Officer training. You seem to have been the exception rather than the rule. Not one of the Newbees sent your way has asked for a “Situation Report” nor attempted to “De-brief” you for the intel you and yours has gained so far in this operation.
I don’t think any officer training of any service anywhere teaches a new officer to come in and get advice on anything except from the commanding or a superior officer.
There’s nothing in the manual about when there’s no senior officer. A new C.O. might be taught to counsel with his command post team but you have to remember what my
reputation was when I went in and then after I was there for a while. Pretty bad. So, the lack of wanting to hear from those already on the ground was sort of forgiveable.
And, in fact, those that failed to do that paid the ultimate price. How can training commands understand anything about combat when so few survive it in any condition to report
back?
Semper fi,
Jim
well said. i concur.
Thanks Glenn!!
Jim
Another great chapter, LT. Semper Fi and Happy 242nd Birthday tomorrow!
I wish the celnbrtion of the Marine Corps Birthday was different. I would go if it was different. I do not want to go for LeJune’s address being read, or
honoring the oldest and youngest Marine or any of that crap. I would go to hear Marines stand up one after another and talk about what it means to be a Marine
and what it was like when they were still active. I’d go to sit at dinner tables filled with the active young Marines sitting among the old guys and gals.
I’d go for that. As it is, I will be here, drinking a toast of Dr. Pepper, heated, just the way the Gunny said he drank it back home. Uuuuurah!
Semper fi,
Jim
You can do both, Jim. Tradition is the bedrock that makes Marines Marines. Without emphasizing that to the new ones, we would just be another bunch of guys with guns. The traditional ceremony doesn’t take that long, and a lot of valuable lessons and maybe-even-true sea stories get passed after.
Happy Birthday, Marine!
Too true, and I should have not written on here what I wrote. I am such an iconoclast and non-joiner,
mostly because what I join does not join me back. But that’s my perspective.
Thanks for the course correction…and setting things straight…
Semper fi, and Happy Birthday,
Jim
There comes a time when the battle is done and we all become one as comrades in arms. We paid our dues both in life and in death and have earned a cherished peace and rest.
With that said, I salute all of my brothers in arms and wish you all a happy and peaceful Veteran’s Day, job well done!
Semper fi James
Thanks J. We did indeed pay our dues, so to speak.
But the dues just get you back into the world, they sure as hell don’t secure a place of honor for you.
For example; I have a Purple Heart license plate.
The local newspaper ran a story alleging that my plate might have been attained by fraud.
That was not true, of course, and they should have known that since it takes a lot of the right paperwork to qualify.
But there it was.
Real life, right here in little old River City.
Semper fi,
Jim
That is a shame James, but that is what you get in a liberal community in this country. I live in a predominantly GOP county, where all veterans get treated with respect and thanked for their service.
I live in the most conservative county in Wisconsin except for Waukesha.
Just the way it is. Semper fi, and thanks for commenting on here about this, as usual J….
Jim
Hey Lt. Can sense the maturing of the young man coming to the fore in this piece. Guess most of us have faced it at one time or another. The consequences, however don’t come with such rapidity to most. Rocky road ahead, or so I sense. Take care Lt.
I never could ‘take care’ in the valley. I tried hard enough. I wanted to stay inside that hole in that czve
or anywhere but out exposed to the weather, jungle and enemy…or even my own Marines. There was not place to hide
for very long. So I did what I had to do…and it was so fucking hard to do. Fusner cried that night and I saw it.
I cried that night and nobody saw it. It just had to be that way. Hard.
Semper fi,
Jim
What a psychological gold mine, when contemplating the differences between reality versus mythology. On one hand, we have the ranked newbies who have never been tried in the bush, verses those who were tried and true. The mental and knowledgable differences between the two different elements, were as vast as the valley. To add to the delusional scene, was the world of fantasy that was represented by the Stars and Stripes crew. Each communicated from entirely different prospectives and yet, were all part of the senseless war in a moment of lost time.
As one continues to read this saga, one can understand why junior continues to doubt himself, is filled with fear and has accepted his fate to die in the hell torn valley of the A Shau. His only counselor for understanding, lies with the Gunny who says little and is often questioning junior’s actions, adding to the immense self doubt that junior is always struggling with. Because of junior’s personal struggles, he fails to see that of the others that surround him. His NCO’s that fail to follow orders for fear of being killed. A weeping and crying NCO, who is caught on a broken bridge and fearing for his life as the enemy is shooting at him. Then his ever present radio man beside or behind him to serve his needs, gently crying over a premonition of death. They all showed signs of fear that junior did not see and was afraid to show himself. Yet it was there, clear as day, every day and night.
Yet, each and everyone of those marines, had the courage to face down their individual fears and overcome them in victory and in death. Fear is the beginning of courage, not the lack of it!
As usual J, you reach right into the very guts of the segment, haul out the psychological entrails and then smack them down upon the cold
fetid soil of human discontent. Yes, to all of what you said, not that I could see it before you wrote it. I cannot see when I am writing this.
I simply sit here and the words come, flowing out beyond the experiences. I see things. I still ‘see’ Fusner and his tears. I still see that
cave and looking out through the slit onto the surface of that raised muddy river passing by so fast. I feel thta air and smell that combination
of smells I’ve never experienced again, but I know that combo is still out there somewhere. Thanks for the unbidden unwritten but oh so evident compliment
in your words.
Semper fi, my friend,
Jim
Sometimes you just leave me with nothing to say, not even the wise crack I usually have when there’s nothing else. Reading your viewpoint makes me wonder about what the grunts were thinking. Reader comments fill in part of it and what you wrote about the contact with Fusner spoke volumes. Thanks, Jim.
I know you. You don’t have to say much. You ARE much!
Semper fi, and thanks, as usual…
Semper fi,
Jim
Keep at it Lt. I know some hard chapters are still ahead. You told him not to go. All you could do. It don’t mean nothing.
Don R
Yes, Donnie, I did tell him not to go. But the Gunny stole all their shit.
What if they’d had all their stuff up on that hill?
Segment to come…
Semper fi,
Jim
Did the Gunny really steal all of their shit? Considering what the Gunny knew about the bush and about Delaware, were those really his intentions or was he merely looking out for his company, that would have to rescue what was left of the troops that were headed for the Hill?
The Gunny made it very evident to you and others, that Clews and his men were headed for disaster. He was so convinced that this is what would happen, that he claimed to have lied his ass off about needing you to stay in the rear with the rest of the company. He merely procured that which was needed for his company to survive.
Gunny also saw the air support that Clews and his men had, so probably figured they would not miss some of the supplies which he procured. He was also smart enough to know the Clews, did not have the manpower to protect any command post that he intended to set up, once he reached his destination.
Last but not least, any good officer would have checked the necessary supplies needed to complete his mission, before departing. Midnight requisition was not uncommon in the military.
Clews started back from that chopper, angry as hell, no doubt. But then he thought better of trying to get
Army guys to come out and get the supplies back from grizzled Marines, probably. He might even have gone on
thinking he could cover the pilferage with a quick resupply the next day. Combined operations were usually lavishly
supplied and thought of, even if they seldom worked.
Semper fi,
and thanks,
Jim
Another great segment LT. All grunts can empathize with the terrible living conditions and the green FNG officer’s ignorance of the reality of war.
Thanks for the compliment and the encouragement and understanding.
It was indeed a very strange time, but apparently not as uncommon as I once thought before beginning to write it and put it up here…
Semper fi,
Jim
Jim, it occurs to me that all the characters in this book are not wearing uniforms…Marine or NVA. The river and the rain are very much antogonists in the story…over which you have no control. I know you don’t often feel like a hero, but that is just what heroic characters do. They wage war against foes over whom they have little to no hope of defeating.
Don’t know if you intended it or not. If you did, you’re damn good! If you didn’t, then that’s even more creative genius…unconscious. You have a great talent for writing dialogue that just draws me in…I feel the wetness, I smell the decay, I hurt when you hurt. No way around it, this is one painful story to read. I can’t even begin to know how much it hurts to write it!
Thanks for, first, standing in for me while I got a 2s and played football and learned how to teach. Secondly, thank you for allowing me to hurt with you as you write this. It is an honor.
Bobby. Thank you. A big thank you. We all wore uniforms. We wore the Marine utilities,
mostly herring bone from Korea or the plain green stuff iwth the black patch on the left breast.
They wore black silk and cotten things, sometimes with funny little open ‘coats.’ In reality, with the mud
and the mess of it, we all wore this sort of brown mixed mess of attire. We had the flat ‘boony’ hats, tied
bandannas and WWII helmets with liners and canvas covers (brown or green side out). They wore bandannas and
sometimes the pointed ‘lampshade’ rice hats of the lowland farmers. Sorry I have not done a good job about
describing that. Hope it helps. We all wore mud
Semper fi, and thanks most sincerely for the depth of your compliments. Received!
Jim
Semper Fi, that all i can say,i saw the vslley,and walk on the ferns
Yes, the firms of the valley north. Interesting that you would mention them. The dark green and the nearly chartreuse stuff
of the early shoots. Thanhks for commewning here and being one of us.
Semper fi,
Jim
good read LT> most people will never understand what we went through. we endured the boiling heat the tough terrain with 60 pounds of weapons and gear. we lost 20 percent of our body weight while in the bush. we slept on the ground under makeshift poncho hooches we took them down in the rain because they shined and became a targets. we never got more than a hour or two of sleep for months at a time in the bush.A break consisted of four or five days in the rear. and we are here today because we covered our fellow troops. all I can is say is its kind of hard to get excited about tales of Woodstock. thanks LT. for showing people what it was really like.
Thank you ever so much for the compliment and for writing about what it was really like.
I don’t know how we did it now.
The burden was so fucking huge.
Semper fi,
Jim
“”The day was dying as I stood there…….wild Bong Song river.””
”
Between the beginning and the end of this sentence ….you could fill another book… Pure magic….
Gunny made promises and told lies to the Hill 975 boys…..just to convince them to leave without you….He did what he was supposed to do…protect his Officers and men….Most of the Gunny’s I knew could have walked on water and I wouldn’t have been surprised at all.. Get some sleep “Lt”….yer gonna need it….I have a feeling that “Shermans march to the sea’ might have to take a seat in the bleachers…. “Delaware’….here we come…. Semper Fi……..(and by the way…Happy Birthday tomorrow!! )
I went back and reread that Larry, because of you. I read it and wondered who wrote it.
Like it had not come out of me.
With my eyes closed I imagined that passage, being back there
and trying to relive but not trying to really relive. Thanks for that deep compliment.
Yes, Delaware is up ahead and the pace is not about to slow at all….
Semper fi,
Jim
reminds me of the joy of receiving a letter from my honey after I had set a base record of 87 days for not receiving any mail, even “occupant”, only to rip open my own “Dear John” letter…..damn
Man oh man, a dear john letter after 87 days.
I don’t know if I’d have survived that, if I’d made it for 87 days, I mean.
Thanks for revealing that. I love the ‘occupant’ part….
Semper fi,
Jim
Awesome God given writing. Tears flowing here. Thank you for telling your story as it really was for you and many others. God Bless you and you are doing God’s Great Purpose for you. Praying for you everyday for strength in the telling of your story.
Love,
Nancy
thanks Nancy for crying in the right place…and letting us all know it.
On this day, me to you….semper fidelis and God bless you…
Jim
I waited with great anticipation for this portion. I knew that the Major was going to be a problem, but I still got angry when I read it. You showed great restraint by not punching him. Gunny obviously liked or preferred your leadershipy, to go to bat for you like that. Keep writing. I plan to buy your book for some of my ex military friends when finished.
Thanks Cathy, much appreciate this kind of comment coming from a woman. Not too many women readers of the work although so many women
participated in the war in different functions (wife at home only being one of them).
Semper fi, and also thanks for passing it on…
Jim
Jim, another mesmerizing chapter. Hope the next is coming quickly. But I’ll be sorry when it’s over. Your writing is too compelling.
Noticed one typo: I stopped in my tracks and turned to face him. I wanted to yell something back at him in anger but then saw that he was smiling a big smile. (He’d) was kidding.
Should take off the apostrophe & the d.
Thanks Kathi, for the compliment and the editing help.
Semper fi,
Jim
Well done as per your usual standard. Far be it from me to criticize an actual writer, but this just really awkward: “We’re going to be going to bag that whole lot up, and then get the hell out of there if we can.”
Leave out a “going?”
Thanks Tom for the compliment and the editing help. Rewording as I write this…
Semper fi,
Jim
lt you wright were it feels like we are there. been with you since day one. very good chapter keep em coming thanks
You are there with me in these books, or at least so I hope, and the verification that you are in the right place,
well, that’s all in the comments on here. The real guys are the main audience and they’d be long gone if this wasn’t real as hell…
And hell…indeed.
Semper fi,
Jim
“you’re damned will going to look and act the part when we meet again.” should read you’re damned well going to …
“He’d was kidding.” should read “He was kidding.”
Thanks for the editing help Albert…and being part of that team…
Semper fi,
Jim
Thanks Jim
You are most welcome Don, and thank you ever so much…
Semper fi,
Jim
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDuDZQUkwrA
Wow! Thank you for this version. I had never heard it before and it is wonderful…
The one we heard back then was the 59 version on Armed Forces Radio of the time…and the lyrics were burned into
my brain…
Semper fi,
Jim
WOW!! A few typos, but WOW!!!!
Thanks for the great compliment Cary!!!
And for writing on here in public…
Semper fi,
Jim
Dammit Lt. Got something in my eyes.
Neat comment Bill. And neat compliment too….
Semper fi,
Jim
Wow, I really listened to the song for the first time. It’s about the rite of passage. Many times I have felt the same as Fusner, but a little voice kept telling me “not yet”.
Yes, some of the lyrics were heard, like this song…taken from an old French folk song, really reached and bit deeply.
Our emotions were not dead, they were just buried real deep to allow us to survive.
Semper fi,
Jim
Sir there are A$$ H*!^S in all branches. Just have to learn the hard way !!!!
Yes, combat was the hard way for sure and certainly brought out the reality of the men serving, real quick and right in our faces.
Semper fi,
Jim
Incredible series! Spell binding written recall. Profound respect and amazement for the USMC front line warriors.
Pleiku AB, 71/72
Thanks Mike, for the great compliment and writing it up on here in public…
Semper fi
Jim
From an old Army medic 3rd batt 12th inf central highlands 68-69, can’t get enough of your story. Didn’t have the internal problems your having but all the rest from the rain to the battles to just everyday conflicts…WOW Keep it going from an admirer…
Thanks William. My unit was not truly representative but man it was close to what many reading here experienced.
That has given me so much strength, comfort and the will to write on…
Semper fi,
Jim
This is the fucking United States Marine Corps and you’re damned (will) going to look and act the part when we meet again.” (well)
Another fresh from the rear with all the answers going to win the war in one day.
Thanks Pete, very apropos and accurate in your analysis here…
Semper fi,
Jim
Thanks for eye Pete,
Corrected.
Semper fi,
Jim
Unbelievable writing. Thank you. Song comes to mind Big girls(boys) don’t cry. ,but they do . Very powerful chapter. Must go and hide my tears.
Thanks for the great compliments not so deeply buried in your words and reaction. Thank you so much for helping me do what I do
on the site and on here in the comments…
Semper fi,
Jim
Now I am pissed. (About how Junior is treated)
Thanks for a quick turn around on this segment and thanks for continuing the story. The story line has Junior turning into a full fledge “leader” and his men realize it.
I was working on that like mad at the time over there Ken. Trying to find my way was harder than anything else
because I only had the reality of the situation and the men around me. All the rest I brought with me was mythology and fable.
Semper fi,
Jim